Imperfections

Birthday

2009-07-03T23:26:00.003+08:00

Michael

2009-07-03T00:37:00.008+08:00

June/Jul bday celebrations

2009-06-21T12:31:00.007+08:00

Makan at Ramen 10

2009-06-17T21:36:00.001+08:00

IT show

2009-06-13T19:06:00.001+08:00

Copyright!!

2009-06-13T17:38:00.003+08:00

Monster

2009-06-11T23:39:00.006+08:00

Holidays?...NOT!!...

2009-06-11T22:57:00.004+08:00

Frustration

2009-06-09T23:30:00.003+08:00

The Man I Love

2009-06-08T22:32:00.011+08:00

Breaking News!!!...as if...

2009-06-07T23:51:00.007+08:00

2009-04-17T21:20:00.013+08:00

Ok....update on my beloved niece....

Just nw acc Kak Long to e doc for Iman's sunat(circumcision) and tindik(piercing)...my poor niece...she cried so hard tat my own tears were shed...it was soooo sad...wen it was over...i held her n i swear she was like complaining to me abt e pain...in her own way of cos...just kept on holdin her...n she fell asleep on my chest...n kept on slpin for like 6hrs!!...nt even waking up wen it was time for milk!...it was sooo cute...sigh...

Presenting Iman Alisha.....

Haha..her shirt reads..."its all in the genes"...soo cute....

Isn't she adorable???...sigh....

A very rare pic of her smiling.....soooooo sweeeeeeet.....

Sleeping soundly....its her fave slpin pose by e way...

After her piercing...this was hw she was for 6 long hours....zzzzzzz...

Told you she's e cutest....haha...

School is starting soon...i wont b seeing her much anymore....:-(

--sang at--

2009-04-16T09:19:00.002+08:00

Woah...I'm getting lazier and lazier to post...haha...anyway....

It's about 920 in e mornin nw...its a holiday bt im back in sch 4 major project...sigh...bt i think evrything is goin well so far...im e animator, artist(sort of) and also the sound engineer(YIPPEEEEEEEEE!!!)....wahahaha...so technically,my grpmates and i gt no holidays...been cming back sch evryday...tired!....

oh!...im an aunt again!!!!!....to e most cutest chubbiest baby...Iman Alisha...her cheeks are sooo chubby(takes after me...wahaha)...love her to pieces...cant wait for her to grow up!!!...take her shopping....watch hindustan....and e most important!!!...BUFFY!!!...i'll impart my buffy wisdom to her....haha....her mum's gona kill me...she already warned me beforehand..."NO BUFFY!!"....bt watever...i was nver one to listen to her anyway...she's growing so fast...jus turned 2 mths...n adored by many...only her aunt in CINA hvent seen her...she's missing so much...i try telling iman abt her...haha...i think she understands...cos wen i talk she looks at me...heh...bt this baby is a tough nut to crack!...its so hard to make her smile!!(just like her mother..haha)...so hard to please(again, like her mother...hehe)...wahahaha bt wen she does smile...e whole world melts...

oh...and there's also Nur Nashia Alya(hpe i gt e name right)..she's a few weeks old...also cute and adorable...

Faster grow up!!!...i'll spoil them to death!!...haha...i could go on forever talking about them...bt moving on...

So far, these are the only interesting thing tats happenin in my life...other than tat, its been somewhat mundane...

hvent met my babies for sooo long....sigh...miss them....we need to meet up soon guys!!!...

--sang at--

2008-12-21T01:45:00.002+08:00

For the longest time, I thought I knew what love was but now,I truly understand it...Now, I'm not afraid to fall...Because if you don't fall, how are you able to appreciate love in its truest and purest form?...

Love was never meant for men to suffer
Men staked their heart in love's name
Be sad not for your unrequited love
For if you truly love
It surfeits your heart

--sang at--

2008-09-25T00:52:00.001+08:00

I miss my friends!!!!!....i miss everyone!....

My social life is pretty much dead....sigh....things happen in life...life got hard....bt i'll still be smiling...at least i'm tryin to....sigh....it will get better...it has to....

I'm now jus wasting away at home....doin e normal 'wifely' duties...a 'wife' tat lacks a kid and a husband...wahaha...i feel so old...like im nt 22...bt watever...jus another hurdle in life ive gt to take....i jus miss my frens....

i miss MJM....i miss u gals soo much....even NICK TAN!!!!....sorry i hvent been spending time with u guys....bt i really miss u....

bt most of all.....MY BABIES!!!!!!....my beloved babies.....e people i love e most....miss u guys!!!....

MISS THESE TIMES....

Hope the people mentioned above hasnt forget me...haha....luv u all!!!!....

--sang at--

2008-07-05T04:14:00.002+08:00

Woah...its been a real long time since my last post...been bz with sch...a lot of things happened...

Firstly...I had my bday!!!!...wahahaahah....bt im 22 though...soooo old...haahhah...my dearest MJM n Nicccchhhoooolllaaaaassss Tan Soon Kwang made a lil celebration 4 me...shoooo sweet....gt a nice bag n 2 lovely caps as presents....found out tat a number of my classmates chipped in as well....soooooo sweeeeet of all of em...though it was short,they really made it special....i loved it...here are a few pics..

At the bistro with my lovely lovely darlings...

The FOOOOOODD!!!...

The hottt babes whom I love soooo very much!!...

My "cake"...hahah....it's huge!!....

Trying to cut the strudle...

Thank you darlings n all my classmates who chipped in!!....hahahah!....

Moving on,grandma was in e hospital for 2 weeks!...glad tat she's better nw n back at hme....still weak though....praying that she'll be fine...luv u nenek!!...

Nw...i'm glad tat things are getting better...

with sch...i passed my exam n managed to do my project all on my own....proud of myself!!...haha!..

with frens...although its nt like before...its getting better n for tat im glad...i'm always here for u...u noe who u are...:-)

with myself....i've learned a lot over e past few months esp nw tat i'm a year older....learned hw to let go of things/ppl that i care abt cos eventually they have their own lives to live....learned nt to harp on e past too much n keep moving on...understand tat things are meant to change,adjust urself to e situation instead of staying put n complaining...

with life...things happen wen u least expect it...jus go with the flow...insyallah evrything will be fine...

--sang at--

2008-05-21T22:02:00.001+08:00

Have I totally screwed it up?..Did I do the right thing?...I dunno...I do things and handle problems the best way I know how...If its wrong in other people's eyes,sigh...wat more can i do?...they have their own way of thinking...I have mine...

Smetimes I wonder...watever u said tat nite wen we met...did u mean it or u were just saying it for the sake of saying it to shut me up?....did i ever mean anything to u?...u told me tat ure nt good at telling how u feel...i noe tat...if ure nt good then dun...i wld nver force u to say things n YOU KNOW IT....bt u cld at least show that u care...nw u always end ur msg to me with "love u".....i use to long to hear u say it...nw wen u do say it,i feel like u dun mean it...i dunno...i dun blame u...mayb its me...mayb i push u to do tat...im sorry....bt i wont bother u anymore...bt if u need me i will still b here...always...u'll nver noe how much u truly mean to me...n watever happens,I
WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...

People change...That's smething i have to tell myself more an more each day...i guess the saying is right..its only the people that u love and care sooooo much about that hurts you the most...mayb its my fault...i expected too much maybe...mayb i cared abt them too much...love them too much tat i'm finding it hard to let go....sigh..bt i'm learning...slowly...bit by bit...little by little...n hpefully one day, i am able to let them go...

--sang soo sadly at--

2008-04-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

School has started...so far ok la....i gt french for elective n hve e lecture evry thur frm 6-7!!!...oh god!...so late....wats worse is tat my class on thur starts at 9am!!!...wa piang...i'll be damn tired...the rest of my modules are ok la...bt this sem i gt to learn C# and C++!!!...die la....my C++ so weak!!...sigh...bt im determined to buck up!!!....have to la...my GPA is really bad...sigh...anyway, earlier aft sch me n my fave girls,MJM went to celebrate Nick's 18th bday...well,more like a belated bday...he's crazzzyyy!!!...haha...bt he's superrr cool n sooo fashion savvy...actually in e grp all of them are fashion savvy except for me...wat to do?...fashion is not my forte...anyway,took lots of crazy photos earlier bt its all with darling Jac...will upload it once i received it....i'm glad that I've grown more closer to them...they are the ones who made my poly life a bit more bearable....

Oh!!!!!...tianliang i.e. my dearest Mr. Nonsense and his band,YI XUAN FENG got into SUPERBAND!!!!!....yipeeeee!!!!!....e filming of the show will begin in June...n yes!!...me and the rest of my babies will go there to support him evry week!!!...u can check out their audition on Youtube...here's the link!!..http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WZIM9IxGU4..n their website will be done soon...check it out at www.yixuanfeng.com. or u can also join their fanclub at friendster...my dear frens, pleeeeeeaaassseeee support them....

Tian Liang,we are all proud of you dear!!!....All e best to u n ur band!!!!....

Lately,I've been contacting my dear frens frm ITE...bibi,titi n atiq!!!!....i miss them like crazy!!!....hpe to meet them nxt fri to catch up...all 4 of us are in poly!!!....wooo hooo!!!...atiq jus started hers nt long ago...congrats to her!!!....i really miss them...they are super crazy n superrr fun!!!!....

Sigh....I'm kinda in a mess now...I dunno why i always get myself in this nonsense!!!....sigh....im trying hard not to think so much abt it!...God pleeeaassee help me!!!!...i've had enough of this stupid nonsense long enough...i dun want to prolong it further...dun wanna think about it either...sigh...pleeeeease hellllpppp meeeee.....

--sang at--

2008-04-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

Another post!...
Friday my babies came over my place for dinner...I cooked!!...finally!!!!...i always wanted them to cme over n cook for them...i made burger patties,aglio pasta with seared chicked,fries n sme dessert...hpefully all of them enjoyed it....the dinner was for my sayang ganjun who was about to go to taiwan...his flight was this morning at 2 am....he's gone for a month!!!....we'll miss him...:-(
Mich reached 1st then ganjun n john...mei2 was late due to work....My beloved Mr. Nonsense couldnt come due to sme family stuff..hpe he's fine...Joe was sick...hpe he's fine aso....the last ppl left at ard 1....they were e girls M&M....Mei2 n Mich...we talked a lot aft e guys left...had lots of laughs too....bt thruout the whole time, it didnt occur to anyone to take photos!!...haha...bt i hope we'll b able to do it again smeday...this tym with full attendance pls!!....hahaha....

Sigh...sch is starting in 2 wks time....i'm not ready for sch!!!....i wish holiday was longer!!!....haha...bt wat to do...all great things have to cme to an end smeday...sigh....bt i've only gt 2 more years to go and then its bye bye bye poly!!....hpefully by then i qualify to uni....HOPEFULLY!!...gotta start working hard man!....i have vowed tat i will work hard!!!!....really have to....sigh...

Anyway,Mich n Mei2 are starting poly nxt cmeing mon,14th...mine will b opened a week later...all e best to e both of them...they are definitely doing better than me....if anyone can go uni,its them....

LOVE ALL MY BABIES N WHEREVER YOU GUYS ARE,MAY YOU BE SAFE!!....

--sang at--

2008-03-09T22:01:00.010+08:00

HOTTIE ALERT!!!!!...

I'm officially smitten with Milo Ventimiglia!!...He's HOTT!!!!....haha...he's now on Heroes...I don't watch it but he's still hot nonetheless..UBER HOTTTT!!!...

I know I sound like some 17 year old but I can't help it...God is he HOT!!!...he's e only guy who looks hot both with short n long hair...sigh....I even watched Fergie's "Big Girls Don't Cry" because of him!!...I don't even like Fergie!...First saw him on Gilmore Girls & I was smitten ever since...I dun follow Gilmore Girls so much bt lately I've been picking it up and have been watching e old seasons...

Milo plays Jess,the guy from out of town who was being forced to move into Stars Hollow(the town where the Gilmore Girls took place ) to live with his Uncle Luke after getting into trouble in school in New York...He met the town's good girl,Rory Gilmore and fell head over heels for her..The two manage to have a relationship but like all great couples in TV shows,they had to part just so the writers can have something to write about...

Anyway,a little about the hot Milo Ventimiglia..He's 31 which is surprising cos he doesn't look 31!..born e same month as me!!!...bt 7 days later which means he arrived in this world on the 8th...He was born in Anaheim,California as Milo Anthony Ventimiglia...Raised in Orange County also in California...his fave color is Black...his hobbies include skateboarding,snowboarding & restoring old cars...he has a production company,Divide Pictures...he's also a vegetarian...he's e youngest of 3 children..has 2 older sisters..and when he was young,they use to dress him up like Madonna...haha!..he's currently on e TV show Heroes...he's done a lot of TV shows and movies...The coolest one to me is when he played Robert Balboa Jr. in Rocky Balboa...he plays Sly's son...Sylvester Stallone personally picked him because he feels that Milo really looked like he could be his son...Milo even talks with a crooked lip the way Sly does!!...Milo's crooked mouth was because of a dead nerve on his lower lip...I think e crooked lip makes him even more hotter!...

There are speculations saying that Milo and his Heroes co-star Hayden Panitierre or whatever her name is(obviously i dun like her very much)...is dating...a lot of media has got photos of them going out together bla bla bla....People magazine also considered them an item but they derived tat conclusion from the stuff that she said and what her frens and family said...I personally don't believe it...It's Hollywood!...u can't believe what u read...everybody knows tat...even Milo has denied over and over again that they are just close frens...people have been saying that its a 12-year age difference..I have no qualms about age difference thingy but i jus do not think they are together...a lot of his frens and co-workers have said that it is not true...and as for the photos...there has not been a single photo of them holding hands!...sure, they are all touchy but they could be close frens...and i can understand...I've gt guy frens tat im real close with...we're also very touchy...till now,Milo or his rep has not confirmed anything!!...so i'm still assuming he's single...maybe tat Hayden's daydreaming or whatever...haha!...

He used to date Alexis Bledel...she plays Rory in Gilmore Girls..looks like reel love turned into real love...I loved them together...I've never been so hyped up about a couple since Buffy and Angel!!...bt they make a gorgeous couple...its a pity that they're not together anymore...they were together for more than 3 years!!!..tats long in Hollywood time...its like 10 years normal time!...haha...but I loved them together...rumours said that they had a huge argument and Milo called her some nasty names and they broke up....again the source was unreliable...The real reason they broke up was cos of the long distance...he's stationed in New York cos of Heroes and she lives in LA....plus Milo and Alexis both feel that career wise, both are starting to take off so they wanted to focus on their career...throughout their relationship,both have been tight lipped as they're both very private people...but Milo had always said that Alexis is truly the woman of his life....that she is perfect for him...even after they broke up...he blames himself for the breakup and said he was not as together as he should be...they were even discussing marriage!!!...its sad though tat they're not together...i hope that they'll get back together....

The gorgeous Alexis Bledel...Those eyes are not contacts!..It's natural!!..He was with this beautiful woman for almost 4 yrs!!..

Since both of them are super private,it was hard getting photos of them..but these are some of the few i manage to find on the net which by the way,THIS IS HOW A DATING COUPLE SHOULD LOOK LIKE(for SOME of those who dunno)...Don't they look great together?..

At Gwen Stefani's Spring Show....

Sharing a nice private moment together during the fashion show...soooo sweet...

All smiles at Elton John's party...I really, really hope they get back together....

--sang at--

IT'S OVER!!!.....

2008-02-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

YEA!!!!!!...exams are finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....woo hooo....if all goes well,i'm starting my 2nd year!!!!...woooo hooo!!!!!.....

I had 2 papers to sit for,INCG n GMAPS...earlier had GMAPS and INCG was last fri..n btwn last fri till today,i hvent been sleeping well cos i pulled an all nighter on thur nite and sun nite so basically i jus slept on fri n sat...nw hveing a little bit of a headache...bt it was kinda worth it..i could do most of e qns on both papers...hpefully i'm able to pass...HOPEFULLY!!!!....no sub please!!!....praying really hard...

Earlier after GMAPS exam,went out with my dearest MJM(Meiyi,Jac n Mindy)....it was fun...we talked a LOT!!!!...haha...need to go out with em more often....:-)

Aft goin out with my fave girls,I went to meet my babies at Kallang Prata....bt this tym ah...e service sux!!...i dunno wats wrg with tat place today....sigh...kinda dun feel like goin there anymore...bt then,where will we hang out?...watever...we'll figure it out soon....

I wanna quit my job bt my manager dun wanna let me...cos its really very tiring...n its taking a toll on my studies....plus, sme of my teachers are worried...even had a one to one talk with one of my lecturer...watever he said is true...i have gotta buck up...SERIOUSLY!!!...nxt year is a crucial year out of my 3 yrs of study...so gotta work hard....i promised myself tat i'll focus on sch for e following 2 yrs...as for my pocket money...well,i guess i jus gotta be more thrifty...must learn hw to save...

Lately,I'm hooked on Gilmore Girls...e show is hillarious!!!...n Rory and Jess look soooo cute together...they shld really stay together forever...damn e producers for wanting to make an interesting storyline....usually wen they wanna achieve tat, the most perfect couple has to break up!!!...CRUEL WORLD!!...y cant they just leave them alone??!!...i mean..HELLO!!...they are the perfect couple for a reason...sigh...bt anyway, i'm hooked on em...oh n watching hw ambitious n smart Rory is somehw weirdly,it awoken my dream of goin Uni which i tot was long gone...sigh...i dunno...as e saying goes, "Never give up when you haven't even tried"....i will jus continue to work hard and see how it goes....looks like i mite just stay in GET after all...hah!...

--sang at--

2008-02-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

Sigh...im getting tired!!!...tired of evrything...of life,of work,of sch...ESPECIALLY OF SCH!!!!...cant take it man!!...bt still hve to tahan...1st year is finishing in a few wks tym...hpefully i passed evrything...i dun wanna repeat!!!...then its a month's plus break(which isnt very long)...n then its sch all over again....i'll b a junior...sigh...nw i so called have made up my mind nt goin to uni...even if i go..i want it to be for smething i love n hve interest in...n for tat to happen i need to go private...which is expensive..sigh...then i gt into thinking wat am i suppose to do then aft i graduate?...work?...as wat?..i hate programming so can forget abt joinin IT line...stay at Coffee Club and use my Dip to get a better post??...NAH!!...admin work?..my parents say i got a diploma so y do admin...work on opening up MusiCliques very own entertainment business??...yes pleease!!!!!!!!....i duno...see hw it goes...whre will my life take me...

My cousin,Abg Imran, once told me tat watever we do in life,where we end up is all oredy planned by e Allah almighty...so we need not worry too much...bt i jus think tat working for wat we want is key to success...dunno la...diff ppl diff i guess...

Yest was e family picnic for my dad's side...thank god it didnt rain...cos none of us has a tent!...haha...bt thankfully evryone had a fun day...almost evryone was there...i was e co-organiser..organiser was Abg Imran...Kak Noi was game instructor...honestly i didnt do much for e picnic...abg imran n kak noi did e stuff...i jus helped...Kak Noi planned quite a lot of games....was glad tat almost all of them participated...i've never laughed so much in my life...We started e picnic at abt 1 despite e fact tat we told them to come at 10...haha...typical of my family...the whole thing ended at ard 7plus...after that e whole lot of us went to Bedok Corner for lite bites bt we ended up having dinner!...haha...i ate e lebanese chicked....yum2..at ard 8plus/9 we said our goodbyes and headed home,all leaving for diff directions...rched home at ard 10...went straight to bed after a nice long shower...i gt sunburns on my face!!!...so painful!..sigh...wat a day!...gt a request from another cousin for me to organise another event thingy next year...NO WAY!!..2years in a row is enuf(last year i helped with the organising also)...haha..all in all,i think evryone enjoyed themselves...i think...haha...

Went to work today...was suppose to finish at 5 bt ended up staying till 7 bcos nt enuf ppl...mum fetched n we went to buy dinner home...Sigh...tmr ides presentation...tue, incg presentation...n im sooo tired nw...very in fact...wanted to mayb watch a lil show b4 heading to bed bt nw mst probably goin to bed....sigh...my life is BORING!!!...

--sang at--

2008-02-08T05:37:00.000+08:00

Phew!!...wat a tiring day!!!!....just gt hme frm work..yupe...its this late today....with chinese new year all n today was especially tiring cos it was full house!!....very tiring!!!!...

Haha...nothing much has happened..just been working a lot...all projects are handed in...except for oogp..which is due nxt fri!!!...die!...i've done all the base class though...left the functions...it looks hard...bt i dunno...we'll see how...work has been ok....talked to my the other manager abt this manager i cant get along with....sigh...i will tahan la...e ppl there are so near and dear to my heart...so for them,i'll stay...

Well,Guy called....yupe...he did...it turns out tat we have a mutual fren...there's this chef at my workplace...he turned out to be Guy's fren for over 13 years!!!....n yesterday, he called...as usual,we talked...i told him honestly tat we're all pissed off with him...bt he said he's no longer in charge bla bla bla...watever...anyway,catched up a bit...he nw has a 9-5 job..office is in changi....haha...talking to him made all the feelings come rushin back...well,its normal i guess...

My frens said that it was fated...that somehw me n Guy wont be too far from each other...no matter hw much we drift,we will always end up meeting...haha!...i dunno...i try nt to think too much abt it cos it mite bring me fake hope yet again...

Throughout our conversation,Guy kept sayin wat a coincidence this is...i thought so too...bt watever...sigh...i have to stop thinkin and entertaining my frens' "assumptions"....cos if i dun stop then it will be back to square one,smething which I DO NOT WANT TO GO THRU again!!...but well, coincidence could not be avoided..evrywhre we go,there's bound to be coincidence..bt they claimed tat Guy and my coincidences is a little too coincidential for it jus to be a normal coincidence...understand??...haha..as usual, i couter it with......

"WHATEVER"...haha...

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all my dearest darlings...luv all of u to pieces....**kiss kiss**...

--sang at--

2008-01-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

Another post again...

Sigh...i'm so tired...so many projects to do!!....exam coming...die!...i dun want to fail!!...this cmein tue is my OOGP lab test...programming!!...ive bcome a bit better with programming nw la...bt all these while i need examples to do it...on tue,its all me...sigh...die la...dunno if i can do it...closed book test smemore...gotta study...

A lot of my projects is due in a wk's time!!!...ides,incg report and gmaps!...cmsk is over n done with...thank god!!...in abt 3 wks time, gotta sit for exams then yeah!!!....1st year of poly is over...if evrything goes well, off to 2nd year!...tats y i dun wanna fail!!...so must work hard...

Yesterday went to john's mum's wake...sigh...i'm sooo sad...bt john is strong...keeping up a brave face for us....if it was me..i think i wont ever come out...jus stay in my room n cry n cry n cry n cry till no more tears...yest aft the wake we went home n i sat in my room thinking n could only afford to imagine wat john was feeling..then tears came to my eyes....

In e whole time i'm with them,I could nver imagine the bunch of us goin to a funeral of our very own fren....its truly very heart breaking...all of us hve been thru so much together...we're all like family...we fight,we laugh,we cry,we confide,we get piss off with each other,feel like killing each other smetimes bt at the same time we also love each other...we care about each other...there's nthing we wont do for one another...n thinking abt all of it jus brought tears to my eyes...

Just like we're always here for one another...we'll be there for u john...u can count on us..we've got ur back....

May god bless her soul and reunite her with her beloved family one day...

--sang at--

2008-01-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

Finally my tchr approved my IDES layout...thank god!!...phew!...Sch ok la....sme ol stress bt im still trying to persevere...

Sigh...now its work...this manager of mine is giving me a hard time...i dun really like him...he's nt those motivating kind...wen he's ok he's ok...bt wen u do smethin wrong he gives u this ridiculous look...like ure stupid or smething...blardy hell!!...i hate it sia....makes me wanna bloody slap his face...bt he's ok to sme of my collegues..like this guy,K..K keep saying, "he's good to me..." or "he ok wat"...to K he's ok la..always give K schedule...then always say tat i cant help them...my sch is so bloody far wat...this K guy's sch is so near to Holland V and his hse is walking distance...if my hse n sch is situated e same way i would aso not mind working evryday!...stupid...no brains!...always think i dun wanna work...

The past Sat i had to work frm 1-6...so wen it was 6 i asked him can i clock out...then he say 630 wat...then i was like wat?...schedule said 6...then he said cos e 6pm ppl hvent come then i need to extend...i said,"u nver tell me earlier...he replied...like this i wont give u schedule for nxt wk(meaning this wk)....then i was like wat?!!...then he gt e cheek to say..."30 mins aso cannt help us"...wah...i feel like cursing him sia...he nver tell me tat i hve to extend...jus keep quiet...wen 6 came by,jus tell me to extend at 630 n make it my fault wen i cant...my dad was fetching me n he's nt really e patient kind...then he started nagging...i was so fed up that i said.."ya la2!...i extend!"....wth sia!...previous managers if they see by 5plus e 6pm ppl hvent cme ah they will call them up n ask whre they are...n if they are late they will inform e earlier shift ppl to extend...this manager nver even tell me...if i nver say,i wont noe i need to extend...no doubt its only 30 mins bt wa lau!...no professionalism!...the worst part was,other collegues of mine can clock out at 6...then nvm...wen my dad rch,i tell him my dad is here n he purposely ignore me and turn to my other collegue to talk to her!!...my collegue had to tell him.."erm..her father is here"...shit sia...waaa...really cant tahan man...bt die2 must tahan...nw jus ignore him lor...if need to talk then talk...lucky my supervisor n another manager ok....sigh...was thinking of asking for transfer...bt i love my collegues...its jus this manager who's a prick!...wen u do work,he'll say.."huh?...this is e way u wipe e table?"..."this is e way u wipe e display unit?"...wa lau...if u can do better than me then do la!...ive been doing it e same way for so long,nobody ever said anything...only him...stupid!...

mayb jus ignore him lor nwadays...jus do my work...n ive made up my mind to do hosting!...no more bar...jus hosting...easier aso...jus tahan...try to minimize contact with him...

Moving on to happier things...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIN!!!!...today's my sister's 12th birthday...so big oredy!!....aft sch went to buy her a mini cake....was a surprise for her cos she didnt noe i was getting her a cake...bought her a leather school bag as a present..she loved it...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!!...I LOVE U!!!....

The mini cake

My sis blowing her cake

Cutting the cake

Trying to act funny..forever la she...

Still trying to cut e cake

greedy woman!...

kena sabo!!...look at her face!!...ahhahahahhahaha....evil me...

bt she's still a good sport...

eat,eat,eat....forever eating...

tsk...tsk....look at her!...

can even sleep halfway thru eating!!...haha...

Like mother like daughter...

Sisterly luurrvvee....

Finally a satsfied little girl...

--sang at--

2008-01-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

SIAN!...SIAN!!...SIAN!!!!!!....sigh....redo IDES like 10 times still not up to standard!!...Wen Ms Peggy told me tat my layout nt approved,i cried...sigh...wat can i do?...im WEAK!!...she kept saying tat my wesite is too WDS which its nt suppose to be...its a game website...sigh...she said if i'm doin WDS mayb she wld gimme a B+/A..bt since its a game website...she at most will gimme a C...i really dunno...makes me think of giving up more!!....im nt good in anything!!...nothing!!!...USELESS!!...sigh...

Bt my dears MJM always encouranging me...esp Meiyi...tmr goin over her house..she gonna help me with my layout...thx dear...u dunno hw much it means to me....

Lately,I'm really tryin hard to understand C++....i try to come for all lectures...try staying awake in labs...paying attention(duh)..eating healthier...excercising...n i think its kinda working...sigh...my dad said smething to me over the weekend that makes me a bit more motivated..he said,"you are me n mum's last hope...i dun wan u to give up on sch easily...not everyone are given this opportunity..wenever i think abt my kids,i can always see u being very successful in life..n im nt saying it jus for the sake of saying it..n its nt wat or how i've envisioned u to be...its a reality tat ive always believed in...n u shld believe in it too dear...u're the strongest one among ur siblings...im jus sad tat u dun see urself the way me,ur mum, ur siblings or the world see u..."

Tat teared me up a bit...cos my dad dun really say these kind of things...he's like e typical dad u noe..the strong,strict disciplinarian kind..so was kinda shocked wen he said tat...bt i told him tat my siblings are so smart..my bro have won numerous bursaries n my sis is followin on his path..her teachers kept saying wat a wonderful student she is...n me?...sigh...im a slow poke!!...nver won a single award in my life!...dun understand y im e strong one...then he added..
"you noe wen u were born u had so many complications?...u had to go thru a lot of surgeries...n doctors had a lot of doubt tat ure gonna live..they said even if u did survive,u'll be retarded...so many nights ur mum n i prayed tat u'll b ok...tat watever e doctors said wont come true..n my dear,ive seen u grown into a smart n beautiful young woman u are today n ive seen wat u can do n ur mum n i are very proud of u though we dun really say it...u fought a fierce battle to stay alive n this is jus school...this is nothing compared to what u've been thru...u'll get thru this...n u'll be great at it...nw u see y ure e strongest?...ur bro and sis are smart kids n special in their own way..bt they're nothing like u...u have a beautiful n big heart...n ur determination n perseverance has amazed me soo many times...ure compassionate and loving to those ard u...so dun ever think u cant do it...cos honestly my dear,theres nothing u cant do...like i said,u will b successful one day...tat im very sure..."

When he told me e story...i was like WOW!...tears jus kept pouring thru...nw evrythin make sense to me...im a bit slow at getting things is cos im suppose to be retarded!...wow...the news was jus...WOW...im too lost for words...i mean i knew i had complications wen i was born...ive gt stitch marks on my left leg n one across my abs...bt i nver tot tat i was gonna b retarded...i hope i wont be...bt aft e pep talk dad gave me,i was motivated...i really wanna pass poly..so i'll work hard...sigh...im nt giving up i guess...

P.S: if u wanna stay awake in class,here's a tip i gt frm my fitness instructor(recently joined a gym..hehe). she said to always have a bottle of water on ur table n drink it every once in a while thruout ur lesson cos if we're sleepy is cos our body tired...wen its tired,its dehydrated n has no energy...keep ur body hydrated so u wont fall asleep easily...also,eat grapes/apples or fruits for energy...bt preferable grapes/apples cos these 2 fruits are known for its high content of glucose which energy comes from...if ure afraid u'll get caught for eating in class,eat grapes instead of apples..buy e seedless ones of cos...grapes are relatively small in size so u can jus pop one in ur mouth plus it doesnt have a crunch sound wen ure munching like apple does...also try n excercise...u wont b easily tired..jus half an hr a day for at least once a wk is gd enuf..n ive tried it out n it really works...also hve more veggies in ur diet..nt only its good for complexion,it contains useful nutrients for ur body so it wont b easily tired...

u can aso find healthy tips on staying awake online...jus type how to stay awake in class n u have a lot of results to choose frm...i found one website tat said exactly wat my instructor said...bt forgot wat it was...go check it out...

--sang at--

2008-01-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

i am sick....vomitted A LOT!!..dunno y...school is driving me crazy....i dun wanna fail this sem...

i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...i dun wanna fail...

yani is a sad,sad,sad,sad person....

I NEED HELP...

--sang(out of tune) at--

2008-01-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVRYONE!!!!...

ok...honestly,i'm not as enthusiastic as it seems...yupe...my mood is still like tat...i dunno wats happening to me!!!!!!!!!!....sigh...

School's starting very very soon...no tym to play oredy...im goin crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...sigh...bt at least ive gt smething done...i manage to complete my game logo for IDES!!!...yeah!!...cheers for yani!!!!!!!!...sigh...watever!...at least im finishing my 1st year...woo hoo!!...then start 2nd year...then before u noe it,its 3rd year then graduation!!!...yeah!!!....

Anyway...last fri met mei2 n mich to see them do recording....at least they manage to hve an album done...sigh...mine is only a distant dream...stupid,unreliable MUSIC SCHOOL!!...so unprofessional!!!...bloody hell!!!...anyway,mei2 recorded a song tat smeone compose for her...forgot who it was...n mich recorded my darling TIAN LIANG's original composition....for mei2,mich wrote the lyrics...for mich's,tianliang composed both lyrics n melody...woah..all my frens getting more n more talented...tianliang n ganjun are superb at composing...tianliang is aso a master of the keyboard...mich is great with lyrics...joe..well,he's multi talented...mei2 has a beautiful voice...john's great with arts...that only leaves me...i cant compose squat!!!...i cant do anything!!!...bt my dear tianliang is soooo nice...he composed a melody and ask me to write the lyrics...so im really trying...haha...i gt e concept for e song bt hvent pen it down to words...

well,celebrating the new year was kinda boring...only went to my aunt's place which was ok only...wish i could celebrate it with my frens....sigh...bt meeting them tmr aft work...sigh...been working like crazy....bt ok la...gt days that have double pay!!!...woo hoo!!!...10/hr...happiness...

signing off nw...hpe u guys njoyed ringing in e new year n good luck with sch...

--sang at--

2007-12-24T02:59:00.000+08:00

Here I am...posting again after a long time of not posting..haha...too lazy...bt i'm here to just complain a lil i guess...as always....

At this point of time, at 3 am in the morning,I feel awful...its a feeling I have been feeling lately...bt it comes and goes...if u guys are thinking must be about Guy...nah!...he's kinda the last thing in my mind now...its more abt school...

I've got no motivation to do anything!!!!....it's e holidays and I've gt so many projects to submit wen sch reopens and yet I've got nothing done...honestly,i hate my course!!!...i hate everything about it!!!!....aaaarrrrrgggghhh!!!!....i kinda regret taking this course...i gt no freaking interest!!....e only thing tat motivate me is tat i'm gonna learn to make games music n sound effects in either my 2nd or 3rd year...bt other than tat it sux!!!...i cant understand a single thing abt programming and i'm jus too darn lazy to do anything about it!!....ok...i jus sound stupid bt watever...GOD!!!...i dunno wat to do....if i were to withdraw, it would seem like a waste cos i'm almost finishing my 1st year oredy...n u have to pay like 2000 bucks....whre the hell am i gonna get that money???...n my parents would surely want me to stay...y didnt i get e law course i wanted??!!!!...y???!!!!!!!....i would have been much happier there...sigh...i dunno...

Next is my poly frens....i love the girls i hang out with...MJM ie; meiyi,jac n mindy...peifen n begum are aso cool...so is gaspar...beng n kev are alrite...there's also the frenly marcus n nic...well,thats basically who i talk to in school...bt at times i feel so detached from them....i hang out with them like almost evryday...bt smetimes i jus feel so distant...like im nt suppose to be ther....i feel out of place....like i dun belong ther...u noe wat i mean....i once told someone that once i graduated from poly(if i manage to stay on till the end), i wld probably loose contact with all my poly frens...i dunno y i said tat...mayb cos i can't feel any bond..sigh....mayb its jus me....mayb i'm thinking too much...i dunno...my brain is in a big mess right nw...i dunno wat to think!!..

But i have seriously thought about leaving poly but i'm only staying for the sake of my future...aso for the sake of goin uni...bt looks like i can kiss university goodbye at the rate im going...mayb a diploma is all tat was meant to be for me...i'll nver make it...GOD!!!...wat is wrong with me?!!!...at this moment,i'm still nt motivated to do any of my projects which is due less than a wk's time!!...a normal person would panic bt all i feel is, "watever!!"...

I really have to stop thinking about all this crap but it's bothering me so much!!!...even my mum is worried....sigh...

Anyway..moving on to happier things...there is though a group of frens that i love so much n have a great time with...MY VOCAL FRENS!!...guys,seriously,we gotta think of a name for ourselves...calling ourselves vocalmates or cemta or calling each other vocal frens are jus so bleagh...haha...anyway,as i was saying...these ppl are awesome n we're all trying to chase the same dream..we'll work hard on it...we'll make it!!!...well,hopefully we can make it or I'm screwed!!...haha..

Went to celebrate e Dec babies bday at Chong Pang,Boon Keng...bt thx to huiling we definitely wont be eating Chong Pang anymore..aft Boon Keng we went town to go Starbucks...hazelnut hot chocolate...yum yum...here are sme pics..

John opening his present

My sayang opening his...

My darling tian liang opening his present...look at the smile on his face...

Michelle's one was big so she took sme time....

Still tryin to open e huge present...Mich-"Wat u all get me sia??"...

Mich looking a bit scared to open...haha...

It's a keyboard!!!!...Something she's always wanted...look at her 'son's(aka Tian Liang's)' face...

Awww...she cried....n she said i was the sensitive one!!.....

Tian Liang with his shirt...

John with his shoe...

Sayang Ganjun with his tuner...

Lastly....a happy Michelle with her keyboard....:->

Finally...a pic of the REAL us....Joe wasnt ready i guess bt watever...Love all of em!...

-sang at-

2007-12-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!....Poly is driving me up the wall!!...i'm goin crazy!!...crazy i tell u...so many assignments at one go!!!...can die i tell u...

Sigh...started my new sem like 5 wks ago n only now i've gt e tym to really update...so tired...one after another assignments are pouring thru...n my term test is cmeing like in a wk's tym n i noe nuts abt any of my subjects n hve missed 3 lectures for programming which carries 8CUs!!...cant wake up in e mornin la...sch so freaking far...sigh...at least if sch nearby or smethin..if late nt so bad la...nw if i late...by e tym i rch sch...end of lecture oredy....then may as well i dun come...waste my train n bus fare...go so far then only to go hme again..sigh..nvm...1st year almost over...must persevere...die2 must persevere...aim for tat diploma...tats wat i want...actually wanna try go uni...bt lookin at hw im performing..FAT HOPES AH!!!....haiyah....

Anyway,its been a long time ive met my beloved babies...bt meeting them this cmeing fri for December babies bday celebration...yeah!!!...hmm...we mite b goin Sakura buffet...december gt so many of them!...

All our bdays together

June

Joe

Mei Mei

July

Moi!!!!...

December

Michelle sayang

My darling beloved TIAN LIANG!!

My sayang Ganjun

Recruit John

Mandy

Bt Huiling n Mandy wont b joinin...they cant make it...too bad...This wed goin birthday shopping with Joe n Mei2...kinda excited to see all of them...its been a long time since we've seen each other..all busy schling...so fri will b meeting them!!...woohoo!!!...cant wait...

Guy still lingers in my mind..bt honestly,e pain is lessening....time to move on i guess..argh!!...so complicated...

Moving on to happier things,I'm gonna meet my 'hubby' soon!!!!!....aaahhh!!!....so excited....soooo looking forward to it!...

Animated us...credits to Kenjo aka John...Try guessing who is who..hehe...

--sang at--

2007-11-09T01:41:00.000+08:00

Sigh...I'm so sad nowadays....a lil emotional smetimes....mayb its tat tym of e mth...mayb with evrythin happening around me... Anyway...this song frm Trisha Yearwood kinda fits how i feel abt Guy...yupe...he's still in my head....Time!!...Time will heal me....sigh...knowing myself,if i were given a chance to change things, i wont,i'd do it all e same...i'd think abt him and get angry n then i'll miss him...funny hw these feelings work...

By Trisha Yearwood

If I'd've known the way that this would end
If I'd've read the last page first
If I'd've had the strength to walk away
If I'd've known how this would hurt

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've loved you anyway

It's bittersweet to look back now
At memories withered on a vine
Just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've loved you anyway

Even if I'd seen it comin'
You'd still have seen me runnin'
Straight into your arms

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I would've loved you anyway
I would've loved you anyway

--sang at--

2007-11-07T02:22:00.000+08:00

You'll never know...

You'll never know how much I care for you...u'll nver know how much i long for you...my feelings for you,that were once platonic,turned into something i'm not familiar with...then,u started touching my heart n nw those feelings are seared deep into my soul....

Sadly, in e very same heart that holds e memories n moments we had together,know that what i hope for will never be;mayb i was foolish to even hope...that same heart has been hurt by you n ironically, you aren't even concious of it...

After all that you've done to me, its still so hard to walk away from this...from you....nw that i'll nver see you,i find myself longing for you....

If i had only known that i would never see you again, i would pray that e very last time we met, time would have gone a little bit slower..

If i had known that i'll never hear your voice again, i'd memorize those uttered words you once told me and seal them in my head...

If I had only known....

Now there's nothing else for me to do but to nurse my heavy heart...crying myself to sleep is all that i can do...bt u'll always be in my prayers...Always...

I know i shouldn't b feeling this way especially aft wat u've done to me....to us....bt aft this long, i still can't walk away...

But alas, you'll never know cos i'll never tell....i'll make sure you'll nver know...

**ramblings of e heart**

--sang at--

2007-10-15T03:45:00.000+08:00

Time for another update...

Sigh...been a long time...anyway...i've been bz with working...gt my first pay a few wks ago!!!...it wasn't much bt i earned it!...phew...so tiring...goin up n down a few fleet of stairs...bt my pay's running out cos used up most of it for hari raya...bought e "flicker lights" aka lampu kelap kelip,table runner,cushion covers,trays,containers for the kuih n many more!...im tryin to save e last few dollars for a rainy day...today is officially e third day of hari raya...Yest went house-visiting to my aunts' and uncles' place..only gt hme at abt 130 am...so tired...time went by so fast n before you know it,the fasting month of Ramadhan is over...

Quite a few things has been happenin in my life.... bsides bz working,i've been goin to recording for quite a number of times...i finally finished recording my chosen song....the song i chose was "Against all Odds" by Mariah Carey...it's actually a Phil Colins original bt Mariah made it hers...i love e song..it has a lot of meaning n depths in the lyrics bt god!..it was so hard to sing...u need to get e feelings rite...i had to record a few times...bt im quite satisfied with e result...haha..
Aft evry recording we try to hang out at our fave place the Kallang Prata wenever we can...the place's name is actually "IMAN RESTAURANT"...bt we're so used to calling it Kallang Prata so e name kinda stuck...as always,we eat,we hang,we talk,we laugh and discuss probs there...the place is nt really five-star...it doesnt even qualify for 2 stars bt we love it ther...took a photo with my Darling there...

he always makes me smile...

Sigh...school is starting soon...i'm not lookin forward to tat...bt i knew its gonna happen anyway...new sem,new goals...i hpe to push my GPA to at least a 3.0...i hve to work hard..other than tat,i need to learn how to juggle my work n school...think im gonna b very tired...

Anyway,moving on...they always say the month of Ramadhan and Syawal which is Hari Raya(for my non-Muslim frens who dunno wat Syawal is) has blessings in disguise....its a month of forgiveness and tolerance...its wen we realise wat the needy n poor go thru and extend our hands to help them...its aso a Holy month whre u think back about how u've been behaving the past year...it's actually kinda like Christmas..bt at times if u really pay attn,u'll feel e blessings...

I think i kinda felt it...the guy whom i said we'll nver meet anymore suddenly gave me a call...we'll jus call him 'Guy' from nw...anyway,Guy suddenly called me aft soo long...gave me quite a fright...he called to wish me Hari Raya...we talked for a while...struck me as weird tat he suddenly called...at tat pt of tym bells were ringing in my head n i kept remembering e past n wat sme ppl said to me abt him...

"He doesnt appreciate u...ure jus helpin him for free.."
"He'll only remember u wen he needs help.."
"He's an ass...he's just putting on his charm to flirt with u to gain ur trust and use u..."
"U can't trust him..he's more evil than mean ppl...with mean ppl,u can see their meaness...wat u see is wat u get...with him,he acts all kind n nice to u n gain ur trust bt backstab u behind ur back..."

Yupe...these are some of the things being said by my frens,on-lookers,even his ex collegue...like i said in my previous post,they can say wat they want bt it wont change anything...wen u truly care n like smeone,u need to learn hw to accept their imperfections and flaws....even murderers have wives...y?..sme ppl may say the women are stupid or blinded...some may say,"its their lives...y shld i care?"...sme may think,"i totally understand how she feels"...it all depends on e individual...watever choice they make,e consequences,be it good or bad is smething that they will have to bear or enjoy..i'm no different...

anyway,back to e story...though bells were ringin, Guy n me still talked...n as usual...old jokes n small talks resurfaced...it was nice talkin to him...he even offered me to work for him for 2 days...e pay is quite attractive....wen he said tat,i kept thinkin,shld i accept it?...e money is good..nt bad for 2 days work...heck!...wat he was payin me is roughly wat i earn in a mth frm my current job...bt to meet him again and deal with those feelings again..i kept asking myself..can i do it??...asked my babies wat they tot n most of them told me nt to...n i agreed with them...like i said,i pray tat i'll nver meet him again cos it'll b too hard for me...it's like openin a wound tat is starting to heal...

my head told me to say no,even though e pay is good,n give my frens e job...there's no need for u to go thru all of it again...bt heart told me yes!...i miss him dearly...usually,i would hve said yes to him without a thought...i've always told my frens i'm nt strong enuf to walk away frm him...my heart n head always has this so-called argument wen it comes to him..its like they're hvein a debate trying to convince wat seems as "common sense"...bt i dunno...mayb its me or mayb its e magic of Syawal...this tym around,the head won...so i told him tat i couldnt do it n told him i'll get my frens to do it...he actually wasn't too happy abt it...he was hesitant bt eventually agreed...i feel good,almost as if proud of myself tat i manage to walk away frm him this time...

I've always believed in fate...n fate works in weird ways so i started questionin fate n wondering to myself...y does he always come back wen i think i've pushed him far away frm me...he always comes back evry single tym..it's exhausting me a lil...evrytym i felt like i've ran away frm him,he catches up with me...evrytym i run,he always manage to catch me...its like,will he ever actually be far away frm me?...

I dunno...mayb im overreacting a lil...bt honestly,amidst this feeling of achievement,my heart broke a little...it kept telling me to go meet him and forget about being sensible..god only noes how much i long for him...bt i choose to stick by my decision...its hurting me this very moment...i could literally feel my heart aching..bt i noe tat i'll b ok...as always said and believed by many:TIME IS A VERY POWERFUL HEALER...so i'll just let time pass n let time heal my wounds...i'll b ok...*smiles*

2007-09-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

Last Sat i met my babies!!....bt i was late...as usual...didnt go for e singin comp bt Joe gt 1st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....woo hooo!!!!....n John was 2nd runner up!....so proud of them...too bad cldnt hear them sing...:(

Anyway,met with them at abt 9 at sme Hong Kong cafe(4got wat e name was) at Bugis where I had thick toast with D24 durian puree!!...yum2...Mich didnt like it but i love it...i like durians in cakes puffs or as puree with thick toast bt e fruit itself nt really a big fan..cos smetimes it's not even sweet!..bt e toast was really goood!!....mei2 had e thick toast with peanut butter n condensed milk...it's pretty nice too...some of them had noodles....wen it was paying time,John treated us!!...cool!!!...wahahahahahha...aft tat it was pretty late bt sme of us was still hungry cos we didn't really eat at the cafe so we made our way to MacDs(well,actually...SOME of us only went..SOME ppl pang seh!!!...hmphf!...) whre I had a McSpicy...yum2!...n tat was a treat frm Joe!!!...wahahhahahaha....so nice...tat day i didnt even spend a single cent....waahahaahahaha...eh!..bt then wen we were abt to go home,i realised it was too late so no choice had to spend my money on cab...sigh...so much for saving...

My TIAN LIANG!! is off to NS at this very moment!!!...sigh..cant wait to see him soon...took 2 last pic with him....pardon his expression...he wasn't feeling well...bt he still tried to smile...my tian liang is sooooo sweet!!!....do u believe me if i said he was once a bad boy?!!...wahahahahahaha...miss u tian liang!!!....weeeeee...

My darling!!...

Ugh!!...Look at me!!....

--sang at--

2007-09-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

Jus gt back home....earlier on,met e ITE gals!!!....woo hoo!!!....miss them man....they are like e best kinda friends anyone cld ever ask for....i really miss them!!!!!!!..so we met at east coast n went to eat then went cycling n went to eat again....bbqed stingray n sotong...wa piang...so shiok!!...yum2....haha...meeting them,we reminisced abt old times...joked all...sigh...i really miss my ITE life...

Anyway,wen the gals went cyling me n Mich sat at MacDs cos we didnt wanna cycle and we talked a lot!!....haha...shh Mich...only us ok...i practically told u almost evrything....so pls ah...sssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....haha...

U noe hw weird these feelings can be?....haha....well,e guy i've been posting abt here is finally out of my life...we jus wont meet anymore...n i keep praying n hoping tat it will stay that way...i dun wanna make it sound so mean bt it's better this way...let e time we noe each other be all there is...e memories tat we had or mayb i'll b e only one rmbering,b e one in my head...he was once e guy i admire n respect more than anything n i wanna keep it tat way...let ppl think wat they want of him bt i noe him better than them...nobody's perfect...
I wont think of hw he played my feelings or hw he led me on cos it will only hurt this process of me tryin to move on..instead i will cherish the times we laughed n joked...or hw he looked n smiled at me...n e way he made me feel...cos there were really precious beautiful times tat we shared...bt i will keep praying that we'll nver meet ever again...tat we'll nver cross paths...let it be tat we go our separate ways n nver meet again....it's e best way...

I noe in e beginning i was a bit bitter abt things btwn us bt suddenly i realise y shld i?...then i realise its cos i expected smething in return...i mean its only natural u want ur feelings to b returned wen u like smeone...if it happened to be then,lucky u...bt if it doesnt y be bitter abt it?...it will only make things harder for u....n if u really care abt smeone,u wld nver think of em in a negative way wld u?...so y start wen things dun work out for u?...its like e feelings i had for him meant nothing...like i wasted my time bt its nt...sme of e best times of my life were with him...my biggest smiles were from him...e way he made me feel is like nthing else...y do i want to trade all of tat for regretting wat i felt for him?...it jus seems ridiculous wen i think abt it...i dunno...its jus wat i think....i chose nt to think of him in a negative way cos i respect him too much...i care abt him too much...n deep down inside of me,i noe he cares abt me too...he has proven it more than once...i will cherish him for e rest of my life n keep him smewhre safe in my heart....n pray tat life will work out for him the way he wanted it to...

Haha...i may sound mushy bt hey...wen u talk abt feelings its only natural to b tat way....hahaha...anyway...lookin forward to my class chalet n a new beginning...n oh...Ramadan is coming which means fasting which aso means time for me to shed sme pounds!...wahahahahah...happy fasting to all my muslim frens!!!....weeee...

--sang at--

2007-09-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

YEA!!!!!...Exams are over for this sem!!!....Phew....Nw worrying abt e results only....hpefully i pass all.....borderline aso nvm....as long as i pass all...

Last wk was the last vocal lesson for me n i didn't cry!!!....haha...my vocalmates can think or say watever they want bt i really didn't cry....even Tchr Keith thought I cried...sad yes bt i nver cried...cos i noe that my frenship with them goes beyond our vocal classes...we can still meet up to socialise n have fun...hee...

I've got a job nw.....very tiring bt good la cos gt spare cash to go shopping!!!..whopee...hehe.....started on e 29th...which aso happens to b e last day of my exams...so aft my paper,i rushed down to holland v....e ppl at my work place so far are really nice ppl...my collegues are really cool n fun to b ard with...n one of em has e same name as me...yani...so i had to b siti...of all e names,it had to b siti!...i wanted them to call me haryani bt sme say too long la...too difficult la...haiyah...so siti it is...bt sme of em still calls me yani...haha..my supervisor,Vincent Leong is aso quite cool...he nver gets angry....n he can speak malay really well....turns out he's a Malaysian...bt he asks me e weirdest qns out of the blue like 'are you selfish?' or 'how do u say like there's smething impossible bt u still want to pursue it?'...haha...he makes me laugh smetimes bt overall he's cool...so far,i like my workplace n e ppl...so nice!...hpe i can stay there....hee....

Things are nw different..my life took a 360 degrees turn...things change i guess...bt im trying to be positive abt it n try to get thru it day by day....sigh...e challenges in life that we have to face...its inevitable...i hope n pray things will turn out for the better....

--sang at--

2007-08-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

Okay...time for another update...

On mon,as per normal,I had vocal class n yes!...at last i get to change my song....haha...so i chose another 'Mariah'....the song "Hero"....its relatively easier than e last song I sang...vocal class is definately getting better n better cos I take it a bit more seriously now..I actually reviewed my attitude n tried to change it n i really feel e changes...i dunno if my vocal classmates felt it...haha...anyway,didnt go for prata though cos mich had exam e next day so she wanted to go hme n study....gt a msg from tian liang on the way hme....he was a lil sad cos he tot we're meeting him...sorry dear...nxt wk i promise...

Nxt wk is exam wk for me....started studying a lil bit on CMATHS bt gt no motivation to start CMSY....bt hve to...sigh...mich n mei2 oredy finished theirs bt mine is starting nxt wk...darn TP...we're always a week later than e other polys..so this wk is holiday cos of study wk...then aft next wed...im a free bird!!....end of a semester...hpefully i pass all subj...

On the way hme on Mon,Mich n me talked abt sme stuff...sigh...smetimes certain things happen when you least expect it....n guys can smetimes b weird n a lil bit scary wen they take things to e extreme...n then there's aso guys who pretends that they dunno anything n e nxt min they ask u qns tat make u go huh?....i dunno...who am i to judge them?...i jus say it cos i see it happening ard my gfs....guess sooner or later evrything will come to place...hpefully....

--sang at--

2007-08-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

Today,lessons in school was pretty short...only had vislit which i was 2 n a half hours late for...n then maths tutorial...tmr is self declared holiday...woo hoo!!!....no more lectures...can sleep n wake up late...bt nxt wk need to start studying...exam coming soon...then e end of a semester...yeah!!....hpefully i pass evrything...then can look forward to a new sem soon...whopee!!..

Anyway,earlier aft sch went to Century Square with Gaspar,Kevin,Beng Beng n my darling Meiyi!!...wahaha....then wen we gt ther,Jeremie decided to join us...so wen he came,we gt our food!...n yesh!!...i gt to eat my ban mian!!!....woo hoo!!....meiyi ate e same thing...its really nice la fyi GASPAR TAN....n how can u tell me tat its cos ive nver tasted chinese one b4...hw am i to taste it?...HELLO!!!....aft eating,we chatted a lil bit n found out more abt butter n margerine...haha...interesting!...so aft chat,we started thinking of whre to go next....Kevin wanted to go pool so we made our way to Golden Mile...Jeremie n Beng decided nt to join us n went home...so it was jus me,Gaspar,Kevin n Meiyi....then Vincent joined us..so together,e 5 of us went to Golden Mile...

When we reached there,e guys played pool while me n meiyi talked...A LOT!!..hahaha....we talked about evrything...frm babies to Oprah Winfrey...hahaha...sooooo fun!!!!!.....The 3 guys were actually quite good with pool...Gaspar wanna act humble only...haha..so,we stayed at e pool place(i think e name is cue bar or smething) till abt 630...n then we made our way to e beancurd place!!!!....The Original Rochor Beancurd....woooohoooo!!!....i've been having dreams abt e beancurd since i last ate it...its super nice n i was hooked bt sadly today it wasnt tat nice...i decided to try e egg tart aso...ok lor...nt as nice...bt wat we talked abt was reaallly nice...haha...as usual,we talk abt life,love n stuff...haha...we even manage to convince my beloved 'didi' to do wats right...hor vinny??...haha...sooo happy tat ure happy vincent...nice to see things are working out for both my 'didi'...haha...

It was fun going out jus nw...must do it again soon!!...i had so much fun with darling meiyi n a nice tym with e boys...hahaha...i would end my post similarly to hw Meiyi wld end it...haha...

I love my family,frens n 'didi'!!!...hahaaaahahahahaha..

--sang at--

2007-08-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

Jus got back from vocal class like 45 mins ago...phew...now a bit tired n sleepy but might still watch PCK...haha!!...love tat sitcom...

Vocal class went well i guess...Laoshi is much more satisfied with my performance this wk compared to last wk and if all goes well,I'll change song nxt wk...wooo hoo!!!...finally!...thx laoshi!!...But found out frm the rest that recently I develop like a bit of attitude problem when it comes to singing or in the studio..i'm jus scared laoshi a bit fed up with me..bt really..i was concentrating on listening to my stupid voice,tats y i look away!!...nothing else...even if i fidget,i do it unknowingly...not cos i purposely do it..but Keith Laoshi is really very good la...cos aft all e crap i gave him,he still very patient with me...haha...sorry cher...but my frens aso good la...they nt scared to jus tell me off but really,earlier during lesson i really din realise....will try my best to change my attitude...dun want u all to similarise me with *ehem ehem*...haha...

Handed in all sch projects oredy...whoopee!!...only left with vislit which i hvent even started which is due like tmr,wednesday!!...bt e rest is over n done with....

Earlier on had a lab test on PRSP...i din do e last qn cos i dun noe how...haha....gt feelin mayb will fail tat paper...bt i dun want to retake!!!...damn sian la e module...so dry n boring...evrytym i go the lecture,i'll sure sleep...haha....aft sch,went to eat at my 2nd home(as quoted by jeremie...haha!..) i.e ITAS with the usual gang....aft tat,i went to print out my lyrics then went home....rched hme abt 2 30...then rest a while,do sme hsework then went for class...aft tat,as usual,went Kallang for prata!!..haha...met up with Tian Liang!..we sat n talked..A LOT...haha...*winks*

At ard 1130,we left and took e cab home...i'm really tired nw bt im still typing...my eyelids are about to fall so pardon me for any spelling error...haha...

--sang at--

2007-08-10T02:30:00.000+08:00

Okay....Due to overwhelming response...haha...i'll try my best to blog again....weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!....

HAHA...Life so far hve been ok....there are times which are tough but there are also times which are good...Poly is now cmeing to an end of a semester....Time really flies...been really bz...lots of projects to submit,presentations to prepare....sigh...really very tiring...n Java is killing me!!!!...i dun understand a single thing!...gotta start reading my lecture notes oredy....fast!!...no more time to play....my frens are all real cool n really nice....n im nw 'da jie' to 2 little boys....cute gasppy n hairy vinny....they're soooooo cute....haha...n im nw aso quite close to darling meiyi n her 2 partners in crime...darling jac n sweeeeeeeet xiao min aka mindy....then there's begum,peifen n many others....haha...love all of em....they were always there when i needed them....

Moving on,I'm still having vocal lessons....n Keith Laoshi taught my class back...For a while,it was Brenden but now its back to Keith Laoshi...Nw lessons are on Mondays at 630...so evry mon aft my last class,hve to rush down to Aljunied cos i finish at 4...n jus this mon,during my usual lessons,my singing was bleagh!!....it sucks!!....gt a lecture/scolding from Laoshi...n remarkably it was the 1st tym he scolded me for the 2 years he taught me...so I was quite taken aback cos i didnt noe how to react...bt i deserve it la....n was kinda sad cos laoshi said he was disappointed in me...he sounded like my dad...was a bit glum aft tat....bt e 2nd tym he ask me to sing i tried my best to give my all n Laoshi said I sounded much better..phew!...then he started saying that my weakness is my lack of confidence n i sing according to my mood...you can't afford to sing according to your mood..imagine if ure performing for an audience...u can't just not perform cos u gt no mood...it doesnt work tat way....i really felt horrible cos its e first i see him disappointed in me...i mean,ive had bad days bt nt like that...so aft class went to apologise to tcher all bt he said he dun need my apology...he jus want me to work hard n practice my singing more..bt the thing is,its nt tat i dun want to...i'm jus too bz!!....sigh...bt i will really try my best to work harder...

So aft class went to Kallang for our usual prata supper..its nw like a must for us to go ther aft lessons....smetimes would meet tian liang aso cos e place is jus like next to his block....haha....i really love my Studio Recording frens....they mean the world to me...jus earlier was talking to mich...n we were talking abt reality tv...n i asked her...wat if we have our own reality tv show to showcase our lives as Studio Recording students?....i mean with our antics n crazy jokes,behaviours,late nights pratas,a whole night of kbox,steamboats at Chong Pang n bday celebrations...it wld make a show rite?...haha...bt mich say we dun argue enuf to make ppl wanna watch us.....hahha....it was jus a thought....

A lot has happened in my life since i last blogged...if i were to blog it nw...it'd b a loooooong entry...haha...gt lots of pics too!!....haha...will try to post it up soon....till then,ciao!..

--sang at--

2007-04-30T17:58:00.000+08:00

Woah...its a long time since I've updated my blog..hahaahahaha...

Well,I've been bz with a lot of stuff....For one,I got into POLY!!!!...It may nt b new news but smetimes i still hve to pinch myself n tell myself that its real...Bt I didnt get my dream course but the course I'm in is still kinda cool...Game n Entertainment Technology...I'm not really a games kinda girl but so far,e modules is okay..Manageable...Gt one module that i'm quite familiar with...Web Design...Its similar to wat i took in ITE...Web Publishing..Tats quite easy..The other modules are okay la...hvent strangled me yet bt mayb soon,who noes...haha...

Hmm...miss my ITE frens...lots!!!...I think its there that I met real people..here in poly,evrything is so different...e environment,e ppl,e lecturers...everything!!...smetimes i find myself wishin i'm in ITE...haha...bt i found sme nice frens too...Peifen,Meiyi,Gaspar,Michelle n Begum...Nice ppl...Love hanging out with them...hahahahahahaha...bt i think i'll b okay...I'm kinda excited about my major project probably in year 2...i learn to create my own games!!!....wahahahaha...this year is all e boring stuff...n i have to learn MATHS!!!...e one subject i despise...bt this tym I'm studying Computing Maths...Haha...Its actually easier than Emaths..Nw that I'm in poly,i will jia you!!!...my next aim...UNI!!...hahaha...if can la...i wanna go all the way!!....woo hoo!!...

Lately,been doing a whole lot of thinking...about a lot of things...abt my life n stuff...for the matters of the heart,sigh...its a complicated thing...we haven't been seeing each other for some time..been bz with our own stuff but evrytym we meet sigh...as always,i melt....bt things are a lil bit different...like even though we dun meet as often bt wen we meet,we can talk like we're old pals but then again smetimes silence n awkwardness would engulf us....sigh...wat to do?....story of my life....

Moving on,i'll talk abt CEMTA...last sat's lesson was cancelled....aiyah,I've been singing this song for like 3 gruesome weeks(mayb more) n i've yet to pass it...aaarrggh!!!...so frustrating!!!....Frustrated with myself...cant concentrate!!!...wa lau...bt this week,this week i will work hard to pass that song...

--sang at--

2007-03-20T11:12:00.000+08:00

How time passes by....

Wow...time has really passed by...2 years!!...2 years of studies....2 years of friendships...2 years of laughter...it's all cmein to an end...

I really felt e pinch yest..it was our SC investiture...e outgoing excos are all stepping down,making way for e incoming excos..well,i was among e outgoing...it was a happy and sad occasion at e same tym...happy cos we saw how our junior councillors have all grown to be who they are now...e current excos...all of em capable of taking over us..now we wont have e SC Lecturer Advisors calling us at e most unappropriate times or breathing down our necks..haha...TAT IS SOMETHING I WON'T MISS!!...HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA...
Bt then again its sad cos it marks e end of our aft sch meetings,doin duties,e PLEASURE of screaming n scolding e juniors..e arguments n banthers we had with each other...how jehan n me would fight for e green chair...haha...e secrets shared btwn me,shar,jehan n fath...how me,mei2 n joe would laugh like hell till our stomach hurts..how mei2 slipped n fell in SC rm...haha!!...i'll nver forget it...remembering back e days n memories really make me feel sad...
Yest aft e event,all of us hugged each other n cried our hearts out...it was all so sad!!...will upload e pics wen i get them...

2 years has passed without me realising..last wk on mon,aft our final paper me n my classmates went to eat at Seoul Garden...damn stuffed man!!...bt it was fun...sigh...gonna miss my frens too...we've been thru so much together...laughter,fights,sadness...so many things!!...now we're all moving on....opening a new chapter of our lives...

Anyway,so much on those stuff...update for my previous post..i feel better now...cos i talked to sme of my frens abt it...n they were all there like saviors to me...i felt so much better after talking to them..thx guys!!...
Well,my feelings for him will not change but i have come to terms tat mayb watever i have with him now is all tat was meant to be..it is truly heart breaking but hey!..as e saying goes.."these are the days of our lives"...haha!!...or wat this friend of mine always say.."fake hope ah yani!!"...
Mayb i will get over him,mayb i won't...even if i do,it will take a real looooooooong for me to get over him...but life still has to go on...sigh..story of my life...

--sang at--

2007-01-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

OKAY PPL BRACE URSELF!!!...This entry is gonna be depressing...Sob..Sob...
I jus need to vent it out...

I've never been one who'd let out my true feelings here..but today i jus need to let it out...been holding onto it too long...mayb within e nxt few wks or mths when i look back on this entry,i'd probably think.."My god!...wat was i thinking letting u guys read this!!"...but at this point of tym,i dun particularly care....

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrggggghhhhh!!!...i feel so aggrevated with myself...Y??!!...Y does this happen over n over again??!!!!....U'd think I'd learn from my so called "experience" but NO!!...i keep falling over n over again...I HATE IT!!!...Y am i so helpless???!!!....URGH!!!!...I feel so stupid...Probably by now all of u are thinking...must b about a guy...well,ure nt wrong...n yes,sme of u mite roll ur eyes n sigh...well,i'm not forcing you to read on...if u dun wanna read then dun bother...leave for all i care...bt i really need to let this out....

I dunno to whether to call it crush or something else...but he has made a great impact in my life...he makes me comfortable around him n i can truly b myself around him...N yeah...cos i like him sooooooooooooooooo darn much,u guys are probably thinking.."Well, u like him...its only natural for u to say those things abt him"...well,lemme start from the beginning...

It began quite a long tym ago..(its still not too late to go to sme other interesting blog/website!!)
Anyway,it started quite sme time ago...I've known this guy for quite a reasonable length of time..Initially,he doesnt appeal to me at all!!....Believe me....I didn't like him in the beginning...He looks unapproachable n unfriendly...I couldn't stand him!!...Its like when I see him,I would like turn the other way...But as tym goes by,he started to grow on me....the things he will say like affect me in a weird way...at least that was what i tot...

Time went on n weirdly we became closer...we're able to like slip into this comfortable zone...I was going through a hard tym in my life n it was unexpected but he was there when I needed smeone to talk to...Honestly,he was the last person I thought of confiding in...I even told him that..bt being his understanding self,he said he understood n nver tried prying into my personal life again but tell me to not hesitate to confide in him shld i ever needed someone to talk to...I nver did confide in him again because i noe he has his own life...I didnt want to bother his life...Bt there were days when i feel lyk breaking down or when i had no one to talk to,i was tempted to call him n pour out my feelings to him...bt i always nver did...bt smetimes i noe he noes that i need someone cos he wld ask discreetly or look at me one kind...bt usually he wouldn't pry...In certain ways,I feel lyk he understands me without the need to communicate...Like he can read my mind...

It was fair to say that after him being there for me,I realised that I liked him...I liked him a lot!!...I started to see him in a different light...He's not the normal kind of guy that I would like but yet weirdly,I find myself falling for him....I began to like the way he talks,the way he walks,the way he laughs...Suddenly seeing him do the most normal,mundane thing possible seems so amusing...

But things usually don't turn my way....of course things started to change..there's the good side n the bad side to the changes...The good side is that i feel like at times we're very close that we can complete each other's sentences...the bad side is tat smetimes,he feels so distant...U guys who have managed to read on this far probably thinks.."wat the hell is she saying??...smetimes close smetimes not...aiyoh..so confusing"...believe me i'm more confused...Bt smetimes I feel he's leading me on but then again,i mite b exaggerating....

They say if ur feelings are true,the other party will feel it...I wouldn't dare say that my feelings towards him are true but i am sure he noes of my feelings towards him bcos i feel lyk smetimes he takes advantage of me n i noe he's mocking me at times and the worst part is...I DUN MIND!!!(told u im stupid..).I become like some bibling idiot when it comes to him...Ppl say.."y r u wasting ur tym on him?...There's a guy for u out there who will cherish u n value u"...bt wat ppl don't realise is,its not the same...the intensity is different...the feelings would b different...I dunno whre i stand in his life but I noe tat my feelings towards him are growing as tym pass by..

At the end of reading this entry,if u guys think that i'm sme lovesick fool or smeone who's just stupid...so be it...I DUN CARE!!!...bt keep ur comments to urself...i dun need it...

For my frens who knows who i'm talking abt,i beg u to please keep it to urself..I just needed to vent this out...

--sang at--

2007-01-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

Woah!!...its been a loooooooong time since i blogged...wat to do...no tym...anyway,nw gt sme spare time so decided to blog a lil smething...A LOT HAS HAPPENED!!...ahahahaha...

Firstly,my vocal classes have officially started again...e 1st class was on 16th Dec 2006...didnt remember to blog it in e last entry...haha...so gotta start preparing songs n lyrics again...so far,i only passed one song,"I need you"..passed it last week on e 20th Jan...so this cmeing Sat most probably i'll b singin "Because of you"...bt b4 tat on the 13th Jan, had a vocal test oredy...n i gt into....A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....wahahahhahahahahhahaha...was so surprised tat i got in...bt cant b too happy cos last wk i sang badly...tchr Keith gave me a warning oredy...he said tat at this point of tym,he can still change class...sigh,i gotta buck up..bt dunno y le bt eversince last sat i feel like my body is so darn weak!!..i always feel sleepy n yawning all the tym...like no energy...SIGH!!!...

Then on e 18th,me n e gals went to Temasek Poly's(my dream school...) openhouse...gt to see a lot of courses including my dream course!!!...woo hoo....can't believe ITE is cmeing to an end...2 years seemed very short...Kinda sad to leave but at the same tym,can't wait to start a new chapter of my life...hopefully can get into poly...dunno wat to do if i can't...

On 17th had a performance for CCA fair...initially was suppose to just sing Hero but last min,me n Mich had to sing a duet...Mei2 was hired to do a performance for one of the junior's event...li hai..getting paid smemore...jiayou mei2....

Last Sat,had an event at VivoCity...PROJECT STAR...Teach ppl to fold stars...they then had to write inspirational quotes on the stars b4 submitting them...mum,bro n sis came down to gve support...it was a whole day event though me n mei2 didnt stay e whole day...we had to go class at 12 n only went back to Vivo at like 6...then had a concert there...evrythin ended at like 10..went home with other the councillors...

This cmeing Sat got vocal class..gonna sing as planned,"Because of You"..hpefully i can...n i hve got to buck up if i wanna get into A!!....got to practice more...

--sang at--

2006-12-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

On Sunday,17th Dec,I went out with my CEMTA darlings n Keith Laoshi!!!....hahahahahha...we went to KBOX to have fun n celebrate John's bday...actually its jus suppose to b e usual CEMTA gang outing...bt Tchr Keith decided to join us...woo hooo!!...I was late(as per normal)..wen i reached,Tchr Keith,Mich,Mei2 n Ganjun was oredy there,singing...

So,they continued their singing..slowly,one by one of us came..soon,e usual gang was there...honestly was aso a bit stressed la..even though we were all there for fun,Tchr Keith's presence like give a bit of pressure..I didn't even wanna sing ah..then tchr was like,"sing la...u think come KBOX for wat??..lesson ah??"..i jus rolled my eyes..too lazy to argue back..

So without realising, my "frens" picked 2 songs for me!!...wa lau!...i hvent even warmed up my vocals n want me to sing in front of my vocal teacher??...sure die!..true enough,i didn't finish one of the songs...hahaha...Ganjun go off tune oredy he looked at him one kind..haha...bt in e end i sang 2 malay songs..haha...as usual..Bunga Bunga Cinta n Bukan Cinta Biasa with Mich...Haha...

At ard 11 plus Tchr had to go...When he left...wah!!..suddenly like no stress...we sang like crazy...i sang a few more songs n Xavier aka Tian Liang! sang "Semerah Padi"...Li hai ah!!..hahahahaha..

PHOTOS!!!...

Me n Mich sayang..

Mei2,ganjun n Teacher Keith(who is singing with full concentration)..

Mich n Xav...

Mich n Tchr Keith

wa lau!..mei2 forever posing one le..

Haha..this is funny...wahahahahahahahhaahha...

Bday boy,John n Tchr Keith...

Me n Keith Laoshi..his face so red!!..drink sme more la..haiyah..

Mei2 n me!!!...we always fight one bt we love havein fun too...LUV U MEI2!!..

Me,Mei2 n Mich...hehe...

We hve to do it again smeday!!...Drag Keith Laoshi along so i can bully him n let ganjun stress!!...wahahahhahahahahahahahaha...

--sang at--

2006-11-24T00:53:00.000+08:00

Okay...gonna blog 2 activities tat happened...first up..KBOX session on 19/11/06 with my beloved CEMTA ppl!!!....went to somerset outlet....it's lovely...we sang our fave songs...i sang malay songs for e first tym in front of em...hahahaha...sang Bunga Bunga Cinta with Mei2 n Percayalah n Bukan Cinta Biasa with Mich...hahahahaha...n i fell in love with Show's Zhen Ming Tian Zi...His dance moves are hott!!!...bt cant compare him to Rain...sorry hor Mich...here's sme pics frm e session...

future stars!!...

Chen Zheng Xiang!!!!....woo hoo!!!...

LOVE EM!!...

Me n Mandy!!..

Hehehe...

Wat is this?...a commercial?..

wat sia mei2...ppl singin still can smile2...siao..

all sing till so tired...ahahahaha...

SMILE!!!..

Wats up with this two?...

Today or shall i say ysterday,on Thur..had to go to Simei for investiture...was damn tired...here's e pics...found out tat Zu n Effendi were like e lamest,crazy ppl ever(esp Zu...muahahahahaha)..had fun...bt very,very tired...here's e pics....

e four of us in e auditorium...

me,diyanah n e 2 slenges..ahahaaha...

Me with Dumb n Dumber...ahahahahaha...

College West Councillors-Clementi Chapter...

Me n Effendi...this guy's crrrraaazzzzyyyy...

Me n Zu...this guy's ccccrrrraaaaaazzzziiiieeerrr....

See wat i told u?...CRAZY N SLENGE ALL ROLLED INTO ONE...eh Zu,nose tu maintain ah....ahahahhaha...

Hahahahaha...O MY GOD!!...i look like puffer fish...ahahahhhaa...

Me n Agatha...

Me n Shar...

Me n Rebecca....

Me & e juniors...

Me n Eileen...

College West Coundillors...

wat r these two doin??..

was tired bt managed to smile anyway...well,me at least...

need i say more?...

Me n Effendi...

Anyway,wanted to go to Haikel's house n do my project bt was too late...sigh....Sorry,guys...feel so bad...so aft e thing at Simei,me,jehan,effendi,zu n diyanah(went off earlier..) went TM n Century Square for a while before heading home...

--sang at--

2006-11-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

WOO HOO!!!...Yest,had loads of fun!!!...I had a gathering for Hari Raya...called all my frens...i made my infamous SHEPARD'S PIE!!!!!....hahahhahaha...lucky for me,it was a good response...hehehe...i scared not nice la...though i've made it like a hundred times bt its usually for family...first tym making it for so many ppl so a bit scared...bt lucky evryone said it was nice..hehe...

The last of my friends left at 10 plus...then my aunt called n said that she's cmeing over...so like at a few minutes to 11,they came...it was nice...get to see Abg Imran...its been a long tym since i've seen him...he grew thinner...sigh..wat to do??...ppl heartbroken mah...nvm Abg,i understand..sigh...

Anyway, here's sme of the pics...

Me n my student councillors!!...hehehe...they were e first to come...

Me n Effendi...he loves my shepard's pie!!...ahahahahhahaha...tkpe..makan lebih2 eh dik...

Part-time couple??...i think they shld b full-time...don't u??...ahahahhahahaha...

My beloved SK ppl...thx for cmein guys...LUV U ALL!!!...

Raudah,Diyanah n me...they're gorgeous aren't they??...

My CEMTA darlings...mich n xav trying to 'act fierce'...blegh...like real..ooo...i'm sooo 'scared'...see how i'm 'trembling'...

Me n Wei Xiang...he was so good looking in his baju kurong...hehehehehe....

LOVE EM!!...SR 2005 ROX!!...

Us doing what we do best besides singing...goofing around...

The ppl who puts a smile on my face evry single tym i'm with them...

The last fewof my frens to leave...hehe...Thx for cmeing guys...

My aunts,my cousin n future cousin-in-law(e one in orange)..hehe...

Abg Imran(one of my fave cuz) n my sis...hehe..

Abg Imran n ME!!..hehe...my eyes a bit sleepy...too tired...

Overall,i had loads of fun with my frens bt i was soo tired aft tat...bt it was worth it...hehe...thx to all who came!!...those who didnt,its okay...i understand tat u all must b bz...

LUV U ALL!!!...

--sang at--

2006-11-02T09:01:00.000+08:00

Wah..Long time nver blog sia...Dunno wat to blog aso...Bt now while waiting for the tym to go to sch,decided to crap on sme stuff...ahahahhahaha...

Yest went to Simei ITE for some Career Fair thingy...wah,i break record..went to Simei for 3 days in a row...Sigh...As always,Clementi councillors had to do all the dirty work while others?...Let's jus say they aren't like us..I was kinda pissed off...they couldn't finish the preparations n suddenly expected us to??...how can??...wah,my mood was like darn spoiled...lucky gt mei2...luckily "this" group of councillors wasn't involved...haha...It'll be more worse if they were...

But on e good side,me n mei2 bumped into Ganjun,Hui Shan n Belinda..it was nice talking to them...also,i had nice bonding time with e May jrs..Effendi,Seng Teck,Zuhairi,Hafiz,Agatha,Nikki n Rebbeca...n also e excos la....we sat ard one stupid pathetic small round table...aiyah...bt was nice la...had loads of laugh..Zuhairi n Effendi told me they want to take over my post...Ahahahahaha...they think its easy??...for e most part mayb..bt they are also sme heavy responsibilities for my position...gt to noe tat Effendi can draw pretty well...

Aft the event,us girls went to Popeyes to have dinner...I didn't even noe such a place existed..Food was okay la..bt i couldn't finish...aft tat,we decided to head home..me n Diyanah went to JP for a while..talked abt sme stuff...sigh...things are so complicated!!..went back home..then Dad told me sme news..sigh...i really dunno wat to do...

I couldn't sleep...made myself a hot cup of Milo n sat outside thinking about wat my dad said..n i broke down..i really dunno wat to do n my dad's behaving like there's no way out which i refuse to believe..there's always an ans if u work for it...so i took matters into my own hand..bt i'm scared..we'll just see how it goes...

Thx mei2 for being there..

--sang at--

2006-10-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

HAHA..okay,ppl,i've been tagged by mandy so i'm suppose to play this game...N bcos i've tagged u,ure suppose to play it too...okay,here goes...ure suppose to give 8 points of ur dream guy on ur blog n aft tat,u must tag 4 of ur gal pals who must aso play this game n so on...hahaha...

Actually,i think i'm nuts over this particular guy bt i'm just playin this game for the fun of it...haha...those who know who he is...shhhhh....

Anyway,my 'dream guy' should possess these 8 qualities:

Firstly,loves me for who i am...
Secondly,makes me feel comfortable,meaning i need not be self-concious ard him n just be myself...
Thirdly,he needs to have a sense of humor..it's nice to be entertained by the man u love,isn't it??..haha..
Fourthly,understands me...believe me,i'm a difficult person to understand...
Fifthly,be there for me when i need him bt dun worry,i'm not those clingy types...wen i really need u,its during those dire situations...
Sixthly,accept my friends cos i can't live without them...
Seventhly,he believes in me n my dreams...
Lastly,a responsible guy with goals n career...if not,who's gonna feed me??...hahahahaha...

So that's the eight points..Sadly,it's only 8...wish it was longer...haha...anyway,i've decided that e 4 hot chicks of mine that has to do this are...Shar dearie,Eun Mi aka Michelle sayang,my sweet Natalie n um...darling Fath...GO DO n dun forget to tag 4 other babes!!...hahahahaha...i'll be waiting...

--sang at--

2006-10-15T03:18:00.000+08:00

Okay..I just had to blog this!...

Earlier,a lil after midnite,Tchr Keith msned me n he gave me e best news ever!!!!...he was like.."i've gt good news for u" n i was like..."wat??"...then he said that i can join e vocal class again!!!!!...nt jus me la...e rest of my fellow vocalist frens too...muahahhahahahaha....was happy like mad la...i literally typed...YEAH n woo hoo n other expressions...didnt even let tchr get a word in btwn...he must think i'm nuts bt i dun care!!!!....hahaha...too happy la...if u guys remember,tchr tried talking to Mr. Baron into letting us in bt at tat point of tym,e ans was like a "no-way!"...bt smehow,tchr must hve done smething to convince Mr.Baron...hahaha...tat n also theres nt enough ppl in e class...muahahahahahhaha...See wat i mean?...Tchr Keith love us....WE LOVE YOU,KEITH LAOSHI!!!...hahaha..if evrything goes well,we will start in 6 wks tym...maybe earlier...hahahahahahahahaha...Anyway,chatted with him for a while...told me he's gonna clean e sch on tue..offered to help bt said he could do it alone...then he had to go n do work...

Then,I smsed Mei2 aft tat to tell her the news n she called me n we toked for a while...as always she always laughs at evry single thing i say....haiyah..hahahahaha...

yea!..yea!..yea!...i'm gonna sing again...muahahahhahaha....Tchr Keith made my day...he really did..i had no mood earlier...PMS sme would say bt he managed to put a smile on my face...hahahaha...then he asked me to help him tell e rest...at this point of tym,aft he told me this wonderful news,i would do anythin for him...hahahahaha...so of cos i told him i'd help him...so far,only mei2 noes...will inform e rest tmr cos its too late...haha...i can oredy imagine sme ppl jumping up n down for joy...haha...bt mayb i'm exaggerating...mayb i'm e only one who'll do tat...wat can i say?...i love singing!!...

So my CEMTA darlings.if ure reading my blog,we can join back the course!!!...we will be seeing each other again evry week for another whole year!!!...muahahahahaha...HAPPINESS!!!!....WOOOO HOOOOO!!!!...can't wait!!...let's chase our "Dreams/Meng" together once again!!...

Wo men shou qian shou!!..
Wo men dou you meng!!..

--sang at(n will continue singing..)--

2006-10-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,I went out with my dearest fren,Ho Mei Ling @ Ho Mei Mei alias Ho Ah Ling to Bukit Panjang Plaza...Muahahahahahaha...wanted to go town n eat Sakura bt tat girl ah...lazy sia...lazy,lousy woman!!...muahahahaha...Wah piang,go out with her laugh non stop sia...Ppl kept staring at us like we idiots like tat...Meimei la...laugh like crazy woman..aiyah...

Bt actually,i angry with her sia...u imagine la...tell her want to go out with her then wen rch there ah...she said..."u only gt one hr with me"...i was lyk wat the hell??...then she say..."my fren ask me go watch movie la"..then i was like..HELLO??!!..u made a promise to me first!!!...where's ur priorities??!!!..alamak...bt i very nice.... nver complain so much so i tried to enjoy as much tym as i can with her...then a few mins later she said..."eh,can extend e tym a bit..i can spend tym with u for one n half hour"...like tat makes a lot of difference!!!...aiyah...

Actually yesterday was supposed to help Tchr but he cancelled the last minute...he must b too bz..so me n mei2 met up n went out lor...Cannot tahan stay at home...very stuffy...then i smsed my best fren...ask her if she wants to meet up for a while at WM since mei2 aso meeting her frens there...lucky for me she did...so end up,took the bus with mei2...we were late la...bcos somebody wanted to see shoes..bt actually e shoes quite nice n evrythin was on sale!!..all @ 19.90..wat a bargain!!..

Anyway,in e bus aso laugh...drop...erm i mean ALIGHT from e bus aso laugh...really crazy sia tat girl...then laugh n laugh n laugh n laugh till she hurt her back...Serves her right!!..Laugh some more!!...nt funny aso laugh...though it has been proven tat laughing is healthy..i think tat girl ah...laugh unhealthily...u shld hve heard e way she laugh...aiyoh...CRAZY WOMAN!!...bt it was fun la...spend tym with her...then wen rched WM,we parted ways...she still owe me a "date" ah...i dun care wat she say...one day will sure ask her go out with me for a WHOLE DAY...mei2,if ure reading this...i want u to read n UNDERSTAND!!!...no buts..haha...n mei2...i love u!!!...

--sang at--

2006-10-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

Yest,Daddy bought me a new handphone!!!!!...hahahahaha...Actually its second hand la...he offered to buy a brand new one but i dun wan la...waste money only n clementi gt so many 2nd hand shop...e hp still in good condition n price aso quite good...c?..i so nice to my daddy...haha...

Actually, i wanted 6670 bt e guy say to get 7610..its better bt i like 6670's design le...bt he said 6670 no stock...aiyah...then e guy called me GONG!!...he said..7610 better still want 6670...aiyah...then my dad convinced me to take la...then i asked e price...he said 280..i was like...wth!!..e other shop selling at 270 la...then he said..okay we offer u 270...then my dad said.."wat for?...may as well i go buy at e other shop"...then e guy said..."270 quite cheap oredy la sir...u ask me tmr ah..i sell 300...e banglas ah buy this phone i gve 268...tat one aso no charger..no warranty..nothing"...then my dad was like...aiyah can la can la..anything...bt i stepped in n said..."Okay...u gve us 270 bt i want one free housing n phone pouch"...then e guy was like.."wah,sister...cannot la"...then i was like..."this is our offer..if can,i take...if nt then nvm"...the guy think a bit then he said,

Guy:"Okay...housing i can gve free bt e pouch cannot..."
Me:"Wat?...How can??.."
Guy:"Can la sister...good offer oredy le...other shops wont give u one..."
Me:"Okay but i want original housing...nt those cheap ones..."
Guy:"Wa piang..Sister,u very good le..."
Me:"Can ah...u aso very good...can la brother..."
Guy:"Aiyah,shui bian la...can la,can la..."

Haha..YEAH!!...so i picked e white housing...hehe...e only nice color i see...then i paid for e hp pouch...so i gt my new hp...FINALLY!!!...Thx DADDY!!!..

Anyway, today,i went out with my best fren!!!...went to chinatown then raffles then bugis...i bought Christina's latest CD!!!...
Back to Basics...gt 2 discs inside...Disc one okay la..nt bad...bt i prefer disc 2...highly recommend hurt n save myself...LOVELY!!!...

GO BUY!!!...

2006-09-24T21:46:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of fasting...SELAMAT BERPUASE to all my Muslim frens!!...haha...daddy ordered pizza hut!!!...cheesy bites...not that nice le...but okay la...dad was the one who wanted it...didn't do much things bt oh!..i did get my fringe cut...haha...honestly,for as long as i live,i've nver had a nice fringe...my fringe forever looks a bit off...haha...bt hpefully now its more presentable...haha...hari raya cmein mah...so must look nice2...

Yest,went back to the Studio to help Tchr Keith with another audition...but didn't really do much...did sme photocopying n inserting them in envelopes...then we rotted for like a few hours cos tchr Keith "forgot" to tell us that we can go home...haha...he was like..."y i nver ask u all go home ah?"..then i answered,"u love us too much mah"...haha...then he said.."ya,i was abt to say that"..muahhahahaha...bt it was nice la..get to hang out with Tchr Keith,Tchr Kenn n Trish(newly employed employee)..haha...she was so nice...had loads of laugh...yest we went back before 10..kena 'kick out' by tchr Keith la...haha...no la...kidding only...he was busy n we didn't want to disturb him...it was getting late aso...before we go,he said he needed my help n e rest to clean the music sch n with e audition smetime this wk...aiyah,sooner or later i think i will become the cleaning lady for tinybox..haha...but dun mind helping out la...get to meet my CEMTA darlings aso...so a few minutes later,we said our goodbyes n left...

--sang at--

2006-09-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

Okay..since mei2 said that its been a long tym since i blogged...this is jus for u mei2 so u better read!!..haha...

Earlier on today,went to JB to do sme alteration for my hari raya costume...walked around aso..nthin much...

Alrighty..on mon..went out with my best friend/sister,Aryanti!!...hehe...went to Bishan first cos she had to do smething...then went to IMM..our fave hangout!!...its bigger now with a lot of new upcoming shops like Esprit,Fish&Co,Pepper Lunch n ADIDAS!!!...hahaha...there's many more...bt then me n Aryanti thought now that IMM hve more shops,there'll sure be a lot of ppl..SIAN!!...there goes our fave hangout...e reason we love that place is cos usually there isn't a lot of ppl but e changes will occur...Sigh...

Then on Tue,gt a call frm Mei2...asked me out to Orchard to meet her n a few of my frens...I was hesitating la cos had so much housework to do n i dun really like going Orchard...forever so many ppl one!!...but Mei2 begged n begged n begged...aiyah...then like very "ke lian" so i say i'll call you back...completed my housework n decided to call daddy...for fun!!..haha...i luuurrrvvve to disturb him wen he's at work...muahahahaha...bad,bad me...chit chatted with him for a while then asked him if i can go out...see?..i so nice...wanna go out,must ask daddy...so i said..
Me:"Abah(dad),my fren ask me out to Orchard...i wanna go..can??.."
Dad:"You just went out yesterday...you're going out again today??..this thur u aso going out rite?...wah..holidays only go out..."
Me:"Isn't that the purpose of the holidays??..to go out?..Can la,abah...pleaseeee....i finished all the housework oredy...i've cooked n evrything.."
Dad:"Then go sweep the floor.."
Me:"Done it.."
Dad:"Do laundry.."
Me:"Done."
Then a few seconds of silence...then he said...
Dad:"U take the dust out of the garbage n scatter them around the house n sweep again then the laundry u put it on the floor n step all over it n wash it again..n today i want chili crab for dinner n i noe you nver cook that so go cook for me that..."

Alamak..my father ah...then i replied...

Me:"Aiyah..dun lemme go then say la..."
Dad:"Who say i nver let u go??..did i say that?.."
Me:"ABAH!!..i kinda wanna go...want to meet my frens..."
Dad:"What if i dun allow u to go??.."
Me(trying to sound sad):"Then of cos i won't go la..."
Dad:"Good...then i dun allow you to go..."
Me(whining) :"Abah..."
Dad:"Okay la sayang...I'm busy la.."
Obviously he's lying...he jus want me to get off the phone...
Me(whining again):"Abah.."
Dad:"I busy....c u later at night...remember..Chili Crab ah...Bye!!.."

So in the end didn't go out...kinda sad...didn't cook for daddy chili crab either...hmphf...didn't really tok to him wen he came back from work...but he knows me well...the next day,he bought for me Ice Lemon Tea!!...his way of saying.."sorry but not really sorry that i didn't allow you to go out"..hehe....okay la...i mite sound lame...being happy over lemon tea...wat can i say??...the simplest things ppl do for me make me happy...then was kinda okay la aft tat...still nver cook for him chili crab..haha...let it be...he asked me when I'm cooking it...so i told him,quoting Tchr Keith.."Good things must wait"...haha...he's still waiting...

Didn't go out on Wed either...then on Thur...I was like a busy bee...i had 3 stuff going on that day..1st,meet up with my cousin..2nd,meet up with Shar n frens to celebrate her bday...3rd,go Aljunied to help Tchr Keith with some stuff...

So,I woke up like at 7:30 in e morning(DUH!!) and did the usual housework...all of it done by like 10...i'm late cos was suppose to meet my cousin at 10 at JP...got a call frm her...askin me whre i was to which i lied n said.."i'm on my way..in e bus oredy".When actually,I was still at home..haha..bad,bad me...then aft hanging ard with her...realised that i was aso late to meet Shar so told her to go first n will meet her at the place we were suppose to go..Mad Jack's Cafe..then took a bus there...yupe,i'm oredy late n yet i'm taking the bus...wat can i say?..i dun really like taking trains...unless i really have to then i take...but as long as i noe that there's a bus to go to my destination,i'll take it..haha...was suppose to meet Shar at like 12+ but reached the cafe at 1...went there n had the guilty look...hehe...but Shar wasn't angry...she was just happy that I cld make it...hehe...she took a photo of us...

Then,realised that i was late to go Aljunied...DIE!!...went there aso by bus..haha...i askin for trouble...hehe...was suppose to reach Aljunied at 2.30 but reached at.........................3.30!!..haha...apologised to the ppl involved n made our way to the Studio...wah...our Studio now like top secret...want to go in have to sign name first...the person asked if we were celebrities n we laughed...do we look like we are??...haha..we politely said no...

Our first time in the new Studio!!!...wah...everything's so nice n blue...so BIG...Tchr Keith had his own office!!...then all of us said sorry for being late..n he was like...
"AH!!..told u all to come wat tym??.."

Ganjun said,"Sorry,cher but it was someone's fault.."

Okay..fine!!..it was mine..."Sorry,cher...i was late.."

He allowed us to tour the place...went to the Recording Studio...one word...WOW!!..it's so much bigger than the one in Tanjong Pagar...much,much bigger...Then he told us wat he wanted us to do...he needed sme ppl to call up e new recruits,one to photocopy stuff n one to do chores...I ended doing.."surprise,surprise"..chores...said that it was punishment for being late...hahaahhaha...well,i have another word for it...KARMA!...hahahaha...okay...i accepted it...i mopped the floor n cleaned the glass panels of the Recording Studio...this is actually something normal for me so i did it easily..haha...every now and then,Tchr Keith would pop his head in n smile at me...CRAZY!...i noe he spot-checking the floor la cos that's wat my dad always do when i'm doin housework...he says it's called being discreet...bluek..nk step senyum konon...padahal padahal..menyampah aku...

Then when i was busy wiping the glass panels,Michelle went in with her shoes!!...see,tchr said that once i cleaned the floor,anyone who goes in have to take off his shoes,so Mich was guilty!!..muahaha...but I didn't realise it but Tchr Keith did..he was like..."Yani!..Michelle nver take off her shoe".I turned and saw Mich n Tchr standing there..Michelle had the guilty look...She apologised...haha...bt i told her to lick the floor..haha...okay,i'm mean...aft which,i cleaned up the pantry n wiped the doors...then i noticed tchr wanted to go in the Recording Studio..so i kinda peeped to see if he got take off his shoes..if he didn't..he sure kena...bt too bad for me,he did...he almost fell when he wanted to put on his shoes back on..hahahahaha..

Bt Tchr Keith did his bit to help..he helped remove the stickers on the glass panel...it was so unsightly!!..e stickers i mean..nt Tchr Keith...haha...so did my fellow CEMTA darlings,Mich n Ganjun who helped peel the stickers off the door..it was darn hard la!!...then aft that,helped Amanda with the photocopier...lots of papers to photocopy...evry now n then,the paper would get jammed or the photocopier wouldn't work...frustrated me n Mandy..bt with the help of both Tchr Keitn n Tchr Kenn,we managed to do it...me n Amanda had a lot of fun doin the photocopying...haha...then Tchr Keith ordered pizza for us...hehe..didn't really eat much though...no appetite..didn't finish my pizza...

Aft which,me n Amanda had to write addresses on envelopes...kena comment sia by both teachers...whatever!!..me n Amanda jus kept on writing...Mich helped from time to time...then ah..wah piang,tchr Keith ah...i typed earlier that i wiped the door rite?...he swiped his fingers to see if i cleaned it properly...i said,"I clean properly oredy la,cher"...then he like nt satisfied sia..he was wearing white so he leaned against the door with his body n see if there are stains on his white shirt...n it turns out that the door was indeed very clean...alamak!...

At about 11,Tchr Keith told us to pack up cos it was too late oredy...still hven't finished the work..going again tmr..erm,i mean later since it's oredy 1:11 am to finish up n he needs help again with some audition...so meeting Mei2 n Amanda at 11.15...i'll try to be early...hehe..bt i'll seriously try...i've oredy set my alarm at 9 am...so hopefully can wake up...teehehe...

--sang at--

2006-09-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

Updating again...hehe...so far not much update...today wen i woke up..it was raining heavily...sigh..was cold...brrrr...haha..felt like sleeping longer but cannot...got to do my "wifely" duties...clean up the house,cook,fold clothes..then mum washed more clothes!!..it was raining but since she washed it,i had to hang it up...it's still not dried yet...sigh..

Went to visit granny at my aunt's house..she fell!!..aiyah...keep telling her so many times not to do housework...stubborn!!...spent sme time there..chit chatted with my aunt n beloved cousin..had some laughs..tats about it..now back at home..later going to watch movie with my sister n have bubble tea!!...haha...

Lately,stuff that i couldn't imagine happening to me happened...get me?...haha..dun worry...i dun get it either...honestly,i had a gist of it but was too ignorant to acknowledge it...now that i noe,it hurts but i'll be alright...hopefully..*grins*..I'm glad i hve wonderful frens to spend time with to make me forget about it...I'll never tell no matter how much it hurts me...not even if it cost me my life...

Anyway,listen to Christina's new single,"Hurt"...nice song...bt its sad...it's under no.1 hits..GO LISTEN!!...the song's about appreciating the person before it's too late...before he/she is gone from ur life..permanently!!!...after listening to the song,i went to my mum n dad n hugged them...they said i was crazy...haha..bt this song really made me realise to appreciate the ppl around me before it's too late...

--sang at--

2006-09-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!....MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!....I'M FREEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!....finally!!...i can enjoy my days!!!...haha...it's been so long since i update...haha...cos i hvent been online due to the exams...wah...needs discipline man....it was so hard to not reach for the power button when its so damn close...haha...

Anyway...nt much has happened...been busy studying...thankfully i can do both papers smoothly....bt i was late for my TPS paper then that teacher ah...wah piang!!..i oredy late then i hve no chair...then i took the only chair left n that "teacher" told me to go outside n find myself one cos she wants tat chair...ALAMAK!!!...make my blood go upstairs sia...i'm oredy late n she tell me to find another chair!!!...call herself a "teacher"...like Michelle said..."NO BRAINS!!!"...aaarrggghhh!!..STUPID SIA!!!...n i was the last few ppl to finish...bt luckily i managed but that teacher ah...really ah...GRRRRR!!!...hope tat she won't take us next semester...

Moving on,now I'm in a crisis...i want to go out with my CEMTA darlings but it just happens my niece is making her birthday party at Aloha Chalet on the same day....then daddy like not happy...he thinks i'm giving importance to my frens over family...he said..."go meet ur frens but i'm warning you the chalet is very far n very hard to find so dun expect me to fetch u"..then found out that my closest cousins might not go...i'll be damn bored man...aiyah!!...dunno la!...we'll see how..Sigh...

--sang at--

2006-09-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to update today...went to sch jus nw for TPS n OA revision...then hung out with Shar n Joon aft tat...haha...sigh...

Exams are cmein for Admin ppl...jia you!!!...hahaha...will be studyin in a lil while...sigh...tis sun need to set up game booth at Thai Embassy...luckily found the cans...i recalled wat my new fren said wen i was thinkin how to collect the cans...he said,"u sit at the coffeeshop for a few hours then u see ppl finish drinkin,u take the cans"..alamak...he ah,funny sia...haha...bt no worries now..found the cans oredy n thx to him,I've got cement aso...haha...now all i need is manpower!!!...need to find ppl...fast!!..

Hopefully things will turn out fine...

--sang at--

2006-09-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

Today's quite boring...stayed at home the whole day...My parents n sis went to the airport to see my cousin off...i didnt go cos i was fasting...my bro workin...so now all alone...updating my blog..

Had a nap at around 2 n woke up at 5...switched on comp,chatted with Mich,Natalie n Ganjun..Poor Ganjun..He didn't get into Project Superstar...neither did the rest...bt i admire their guts to try out the audition...nvm..nxt year have...will support u all all the way!!...jia you!!...nxt week is the gals turn..Mich,Mei2 n Amanda might be going...c if i can go support them or nt...

Gt sme more photos frm yesterday frm Michelle...jus read her blog...haha...yest truly was fun...

PHOTOS UPDATE!!...

Yum2...

SMILE!!!...

And now,behold,e many poses of our beloved teacher,Mr Keith Leong...err..some pictures a bit blur..

Whre's e sun??..

Haha..yupe...tats our tchr...Keith Laoshi...

Me n him...

2006-09-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY,1st Sept

Yesterday,I went to steamboat!!!!!!!!!!....gt a msg frm Ganjun at lyk 4plus to go...hahaha...begged my mum for money...get to eat the chicken with my fave chili...yum2...haha..bt too bad it was only 4 ppl...me,Mich,Ganjun n Amanda...haha...bt it was quite fun aso...reached home quite late la...so didn't really hve time to blog...bt here are sme pics frm yesterday....

TODAY!!!...

Today,I had a lot of fun...Went back to school because needed to help Tchr Keith with the new recruitment...hahaha...me,Mei2,Joe,Ganjun,Amanda,John n Michelle were there n of cos Tchr..it has been quite some time since I last saw him..he had a haircut!!...haha...finally!!...tot he would never get one..bt somehow I still preferred the old hairstyle le...the one he has now is more "updated" n more "fashionable" i guess bt somehow,he looks very different...haha...had sme catching up with Tchr...he jus came back frm KL...haha...then i told him about my Teacher's Day Performance n he was like..."I told u that forgetting ur lyrics is the last thing tat could ever happen"...haiyah...sorry la cher...this proves that I still need vocal lessons...yipeeeeeeee!!...okay,I'm nuts...

Anyway,moving on, the "newbies" did their audition n the rest of us sat there n tried to look cool n fierce..haha...most of them can sing...not bad but they had projection problems,control n what not...bt overall,they can sing...brought back some memories of old times when we were the ones being auditioned..hehe...

But we had loads of fun....shared a lot of laughter...haha..I think it has been a "tradition" for me n Tchr Keith to banter whenever we meet so today was no different...first,when I saw his hair I said..

"wah,cher,u cut ur hair ah?..."

n he said..

"no lah..the hair cut me..."

wat the heck??..alamak..then tat one nver mind...then aft tat..

he ask,

"CE is Clementi campus ah?.."

then Mr Baron said,

"No..CE is College East(Simei Campus)"

then he asked,

"then what's CT?"

i answered,

"Clementi la..."

then he ah...wa piang...he said,

"Its just Clementi..not Clementi la..."

watever!!...eeeeeeeeee....felt like strangling him!!...haiyah..then he pretended to be one of the "newbies"..tat was funny!...haha...first time he pretended to be shy but I said he looked more like a sissy...haha...then he changed...pretended to be an "ah beng"..haha...that was hillarious...he talked to Mr Baron abt letting us in again...hehe...sooo happieeeeeee!!!...he said if let's say they still dun allow,he ask me to give him a call..haha...will hold him to it...bt i trust him la...i'm sure he'll do the best of his capabilities for us...tats y we love him so...haha...then another good news came...in abt 2-3 weeks tym,we mite be recording our demo!!!!!!....soooo happy!!!!...haha....tot there wasn't a demo n we will nver step into a studio again..he say he'll make it after our exams so easier for us...i think we goin to the new studio...hehe...excited!!...

Today,the whole thing ended at lyk 5.30...it was supposed to end at 6 but because we felt that no one else would come...we decided to wrap it up...snapped sme shots then we went for dinner at Sumo House...asked Tchr to come along but too bad he had a class to teach so he didn't join us...:(

Anyway,here are e pics....

GROUP PHOTO!!!...SMILE!!...aiyah!..Mei2 spoil pic le...like promoting the tapioca crackers...haiyoh!...

Me n Tchr Keith(with his new hairdo)...he looks so different...

Us at Sumo House..

Us again...

Singing "divas" taking a pose..haha..

2006-09-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

Its been smetime since I've blogged...too tired to la smetimes...haha...anyway,earlier on...or shld i say yesterday..had a Teacher's Day Performance..i sang "Because you loved me"...reached sch at ard 9 then Diyanah helped me n Mei2 with hair n makeup...it was quite rushing bt with Diyanah's expertise,we manage to look at least nice n presentable though i really think mei2 looked different n gorgeous...

The show started off with an acoustic performance by Khai then my turn to sing...did a little speech..then started to sing...haha....I was really nervous cos i've nver been so close to the audience before...haha....i actually flubbed a line!!!....aiyah....Mei2 aso had to perform...she did the Elva song..the name's too long n complicated for me to pronounce...haha..she sounded nice as always...haha...bt she aso had sme "mishaps" for her performance bt nt as lousy as mine...I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER!!...feel lyk strangling myself...aaaaaaaarrrggggggghhhhhh!!!....

Bt the weird thing was,most of the teachers seemed to like it...they even said that I sounded nice...i dun think so le...even Mei2 said it was okay...haha...bt overall,I enjoyed myself...i think tat is e crucial rule of performing...to always enjoy urself...yeah,i flubbed n i'm complaining here but i did enjoy myself...haha...here's some photos 2 prove it...

me performin..hehe...

Debbie,me n Shar..hehe..

me with my fave tchr,Mr Zainal..haha..

Diyanah(our make-up artist),Mei2,Durga(our PA) n me...haha...

Me,Diyanah n Mei2!!...

Diyanah,Ms Tan n Me!!...

Hehe....

2006-08-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, met Studio peeps to see buddy Syafiqah's performance...I met Mei2 first at Bugis...Went to The Royals...they gave us free samples...their cakes was yummy!!...especially their Chocolate Truffle Cake...haha...then Mei2 n me bought this really delicious confectioneries...forgot the name of the place but it was darn nice...bought the cheesecake,choco eclair n cream puff...HEAVEN!!!...haha...

Then went to the foodcourt...aft my bad experience the last tym with foodcourts,i dun really feel lyk eatin so i only ate fruits...mei2 ate rice with soup n porkballs..then ah she offered me the balls...i was like "HELLO!!..PORK??.."then she apologised...haiyah...very cute la she...then gt an sms frm Xavier saying he'll be late...gave him a call n he told me to meet him at Kallang...i bought some food for him n then me n mei2 went to Kallang n met him..then the 3 of rushed to Tanah Merah cos we oredy late..smsed Syafiqah bt she nver reply...when we reached,saw Ganjun n Joe...they told us tat Syafiqah left with Hussein 1st cos we late n nw they dunno whre we are suppose to meet them..DIE!!...i was all panicky n told Joe to call Hussein while i tried calling Syafiqah..skali i felt smeone came up behind me...i turned n saw SYAFIQAH!!...I WAS TRICKED!!!...alamak...make me panic for nothin...turns out that the van wasn't even there yet...aiyah...

When the van came,we were transported to this Changi Camp...turns out it was an MOE camp...sme Karaoke ppl were there...Diyanah's "favourite" teacher was there aso...haha...Hussein n Syafiqah did Beauty n the Beast...then Syafiqah sang "Hopelessly devoted to you"...as always,she sounded fab..haha...aft e performances,we were picked up by the van again back to Tanah Merah...then me,Xav,Ganjun n Joe decided to go eat...went to Cineleisure to grab a bite then hung out at e arcade for a while then i headed home cos i was tired...the boys stayed around Orchard...rched home at 2:30 in e mornin...Dad was watchin TV...i disturbed him sayin,"Awwww..u waited for me....can't sleep without me huh?"...then he was like..."ur head la...the program is nice to watch...wait for u for wat?"...then i said,"watever dad...u were waitin for me...i noe"..then he said,"up to lah...y u so late?"...I KNEW IT!!...hehe....haiyah,my chubby cute dad ah...i love him so...

Anyway,feast ur eyes on these pics....

Syafiqah singin "Hopelessly devoted to you"..

WOOO HOOOO..Go Syafiqah!!!

CEMTA Studio Recording..We sing,we're frens n we have fun!!...Woooo hooo....

Wat r u doin,Ganjun??..n wats up with Mei2's eyes??..

The singing "Divas"...ooooooo....haha...

Us again...

2006-08-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

Today,went to sch early cos gt sme drug talk...tat was okay la...the guy showed visuals of e drugs real live...n wat happens if u were to get caught...how the ppl were caned n how their skin tear...it was gruesome bt its wat drug offenders in Spore have to face...n some of the offenders are as young as 12!!...

Moving on,aft sch,hung out with Sha...went to eat lunch at Sumo House 2gether along with my dear asst,yifeng..Japanese restaurant...the food's nt bad...gt complimentary breaded fish cos we're students...woooo hoooo....the portion was quite big....i gt the rice,chicken n egg with veggie...gt japanese name la bt i dun remember...it was nice...then i ordered the yakitori...that was also nice...hehe...then aft tat went back to sch n hung out with Sha till abt 4 then headed home...

Today i found out smething tat made me go..."AAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!"...bt managed to keep my cool...aiyah,forget abt it la...watever...anyway,moving on to happier things,I'm meetin Studio peeps tmr...YEA!!...goin to c my bud,Syafiqah perform...haha...bt mite meet Mei2 earlier to settle sme councillor stuff...

2006-08-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

POSTING AGAIN!!
Jus reached home about an hour ago..showered n faced the comp...Today was fine...Had my OA presentation earlier...in my opinion,it went smoothly...all 3 of us managed to present without any "hiccups" n teacher seemed quite happy...Haha...

Aft sch,hung out with Sha,Joon n Nur...managed to start TPS while Shar was coaching Joon for PIC...Today,.as per normal,my fren was oogling my other fren...haha...they're sooo cute la!!!...haha...lucky her...at least she can spend tym with him...Sigh!!...anyway..we wanted to stay longer but sadly,Joon had to work last minute...good also la...he can earn $$$...

Finally!!...I've done it!!!..I've procrastinating for the past few weeks...now,finally i got it done!..Phew!!...I just hope that the rest will like it or more importantly,the person who's getting it cos he's gonna wear it anyway...

Sigh...tmr's another day...mite go see tchr's day cake with mei2 n mite b hangin with Sha afterwards..c how....this Sat mite go c Syafiqah's performance with Joe n Ganjun...hpefully Xavier,Mei2 n e rest can come aso...I'll end off with my MSN nick that was inspired by someone:

"You are so far away & sadly,I know that you're unattainable,yet,weirdly enough,you're the only one who makes me happy"...have u ever felt that way??...lemme know!!...haha..cheerios..

2006-08-24T09:08:00.000+08:00

Alrighty..here i am posting again...very unlikely timing for me but woke up at 8...was panicking wen i tot i was late to sch only to realise tat class starts at 10 therefore tat's y i'm here posting...yesterday,smething was wrong with my internet connection...dunno y..was so frustrated!!..

Anyway,yesterday as per normal,hung out with Shar n Joon in SC rm...haha...had loads of laugh...manage to read through my OA till unit 16..haha...nw must memorize...DIE!!...TPS hvent even touch...aiyah...i think i'll b staying back most of the tym now cos wen i'm in sch,i can study!!..at home,cannot!...gt too many distractions...

Today I'll have 2 presentations..both OA n TPS on the same day!!...prayin hard that it'll go smoothly...gt to go off now n make my way to sch...will blog again later tonight if i'm not too tired...

2006-08-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

Went to Simei ITE today...had a forum there...it was kinda fun...hehe...Mr Teo Ser Luck,the Parliamentary Secretary for Community Development, Youth and Sports was the guest-of-honour...discussed lots of issues pertaining to youth in Singapore..haha...aft tat we had grp discussion with MPs frm all around S'pore...frm Marine Parade,Sembawang Holland-Bukit Timah n others also...they were all very friendly...shook our hands n interacted...haha...I didn't know that MPs were so fun..

We were all suppose to talk about youth and the future for Singapore youths..Hehe..While discussing,the issue of entertainment was brought up..so following to tat,I brought up the issue that I feel tat there's a lot of local talent but we are not given enough platform to showcase it...we hve many talented local singers but the local radio doesn't really play our local songs...they do play but not very often...local singers are not recognised...so it gives us aspiring singers slight discouragement...n y do we have to leave Singapore in order to make a name for ourselves when Malaysian singers or Indonesian or even Chinese singers frm China dun need to do so n still be famous...I agree that Singapore market isn't big but I personally think that it's because we dun have enuf support frm specific parties to make it...

Okay....I think I sound very political...haha...so aft stating above...Mr Teo asked me to email him pertaining this matter...haha...he said he'll do something about it....he's a very nice n fun guy to talk to...seriously!!!...didn't noe we have such fun politicians..haha...here's sme pics...

Us with Mr Palmer..aiyah,but my face blur...

With Mr Teo..He's soooooooo coool!!!!...

Us with Mr. Teo again...is he cool or wat??...

hehe..me with Mr Palmer...

Me with Mr Teo...he is superb!!...

Monday Blues yet again...sigh..

2006-08-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today,had a presentation for PIE...tats done n over with...now left with TPS n OA...both projects are done n handed in already...thank god...now only left with the presentations..actually tmr's the presentation for TPS but found out jus now that e tchr won't be around tmr...OA will be on Thur...Exams coming soon...Have to study if I want to go Poly n join Aryanti...haha...

Anyway,aft sch,I hung out with Shar n frens..tat was fun!!...haha...had loads of laughter...went home but before that had to pick up bread at the bakery for daddy dearest...n smething happened when i came home...DADDY COOKED!!!!...i was like,"I've got to try it"..bt before that i asked,"You didn't put any laxatives or rat poison did you"..n he smacked me on the head..haha...i tried it n it was ookkayy...haha...no la...actually it was quite nice...i think now i can officially retire from cooking...bully my dad...haha...

Mum didn't really talk much to me today..She was havin one of her mood swings again...I aso dun feel lyk toking to her anyway...Watever!!...till now i dunno wat i did wrong...she can be fine with me one minute n cranky e next..before,I was like..."what's her problem?"..now I don't care...let her be with her moodiness...But smetimes I feel tat my relationship with her is deteriorating..GOD!!..I hve to stop!!..I dun even want to entertain that thought...It wasn't like this before..Aiyah,watever la...I think I'm used to it now..

Moving on,tmr I'm goin to Simei ITE for some talk...sigh...the memories coming back to me...those rehearsals,the laughter we shared,29th JULY!!!..hehe...mite meet Syafiqah...i'll sms her first...maybe can hang out with her at Tampines Mall or smething aft tat but kinda doubt so cos I dunno wat tym the thing ends...

2006-08-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,I went out with my best fren n partner in crime,Aryanti...Haha...nver had so much fun in a long time...it is always nice to spend time with her...reminisced on ol times...toked abt life...it was really nice...she got into poly!!!!...soo happy for her...haha...n its e poly i wanna go!!...she tell me to work hard for this sem so i can join her...hopefully...

We met at Bishan(her work place) ..after which,we went n ate dinner at Sakura in Capitol but before that we went on a chocolate shopping spree at Candy Empire in Millennia Walk...haha...but the chocolate i wanted don't have stock...was very sad...sob..sob...aft which,we went back to her place to chill...rched there ard 9 plus...watched tv while tokin to her mum..it was nice...then her mum told me to stay overnight but i didn't want to...haha...called dad to pick me up on the way home..he went out with my uncle..bt being daddy!..he said he'll pick me up if he doesn't forget!!...i was like...wat the heck!!!...tats my daddy...forever with his sarcasms...ugh...drives me nuts smetimes...moving on....while waiting for dad, me n Aryanti talked sme more...we toked abt everything(as always)...we didn't even realise whre the tym went...by the tym i knew it,my hp rang..daddy was already downstairs waiting...Sigh...had to go home...

Bt after tokin to her yesterday,it really helped me realise n see my life through a whole new perspective...hmmm...hpefully things will work out fine...

2006-08-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

Today,went to sch late...an hour late...overslept la...at 11,we were dismissed...smsed Shar...wanted to hang out with her n my assistant before they left for ang mo kio at like 3 for sme video interview...dearest yifeng gt e key frm her n we opened e door...sat n waited for Shar who finished at like 12.30...haha...anyway, at 12.30 she came with my new fren,Lee Joon Wei...haha...we ate lunch n toked...then the repairman for the aircon came!!!!....Finally!!..Our SC room aircon was spoilt like e second time n i'm betting tat it will spoil again....tat thing was like 21 years old...haha...anyway,at last we get to feel e aircon!!!.....Heaven!...

We toked smemore in SC rm..then we were joined by the Jan intake jrs who were CCCRRRRAAAAZZZZZYYYYY!!!!....we played Bingo which was fun!!...bt Zubir kept winning...grrrr...then smehow,i let myself get toked into accompanying Shar n Yifeng to ang mo kio...haha...so we left at like 2.55..gt on e train to ang mo kio n took a cab to ite amk...i tot it was a waste of money....bt Shar insisted cos we were late....the video taking took like 30 mins...aft which we went to toa payoh for dinner...then walked ard for a while before heading home...in e train,bumped into my cousin n his wife...haha...it was nice...been sme time since i saw them...then my cousin saw my badge tat says tat i was an executive councillor..he was like,"I'm so proud of you"...Sigh...it meant a lot cmein from him...he was e one who gave me a lot of encouragement wen i first entered ITE....he gave me his support n taught me to always believe in myself...n i'm also quite close with his wife...we share secrets...haha..shhhh....

At this moment,I feel very blessed to have the ppl I hve in my life...even though there are certain things I wish I could have but for the time being,I am happy...I've got a wonderful family n the sweetest of frens...

2006-08-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

Today aft sch,went to Singapore Mint...it was kinda boring bt quite informative...then gt back to sch n discussed PIE project at e canteen..aft which hung out with Shar n Joon which was nice...haha...Joon n Shar studied their PIC while I looked thru OA...went home at ard 5 plus...walked to e interchange with Shar n Joon..n amazingly,I could catch up with them..hahaha...ACCOMPLISHMENT!!...

In the bus,I fell asleep...haha...almost missed my stop...reached hme...showered,ate n sat here now doin my blog...was supposed to do blog for Mich bt she nt online yet...so must wait lor...hmm..missing my CEMTA frens...dunno wen we'll meet again...bt i sure hope its soon...

2006-08-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

Today...aft sch,i went out with Neli,Lynn n Ju...haha..had fun...had loads of laugh n snapped sme pics...met Lynn first at CT then met Ju n Neli(who was late!!)...we then ate at Cahaya at Far East then walked around cos Ju wanted to find shoes...end up,she didn't...

We then went to Paragon's Coffee Bean...n guess wat..met an old fren of mine who works there...ordered my usual small Pure Vanilla n a lemon lime espirit for Ju n sme chocolate cake that Neli wanted n he only charged me 4bucks!!!...muahahahaha...n wen my order came..i gt a large Pure Vanilla(HEAVEN!!)..soooo nice...thx Fauzi!!!...haha...hung out there for like an hour before going home...then Lynn bought me a nice watch...Thx Lynn!!!...

I've come to a decision!!...

2006-08-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

Alright ppl...I have come to a decision...I will sign up for Tinybox Vocalist Training Programme...by hook or crook....I jus love singing n i think i need more improvement...bt I need to find out more n the ans to tat is of cos,Tchr Keith...bt i dunno wen I'll see him again...mayb i'll call him or smething...Amanda mite b joinin too...Mei2 wans to join bt she gt financial difficulties...sad rite?..if only all of us were into one class again...imagine the fun!!!...

Dad allowed me to work to pay for the fees...was so happy..before this,he didn't allow bt he said that he saw the passion I had for singing n tat made him change his mind...Thx daddy!..now,e prob is to find a job...haha...asked my bro for help in on this matter...hpefully the supervisor agrees...the work is only on weekends which is fine...so insyallah if evrythin works out then...I'll be matriculating soon in the Tinybox Music Academy...Muahahahahaha...Sound so "chim"...Those curious,log on to www.tinyboxmusic.com..hehe..

Sadly...it's Monday...again...

2006-08-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today,went to sch n e first thing my class gt was scolding from Mr.Samson...wat a way to start the day...bt actually it was e whole class's fault aso la...all nver do project...haha..nxt week,i promise..nxt week presenting...so we were dismissed early for PIE..so we sat at the canteen n talked...went to OA at 11...gt back my paper n guess wat?...i failed!!...aiyah...all the topics i studied nver come out...SIAN!!...

During lunch went to SC rm to hang out with Shar n e rest....then aft tat had KYB n TPS...gt back TPS project..was quite happy with the results...bt I can't take credit for those marks...it was all darling Atiqah's n sexy Bibi's work...they rock!!...then aft tat went hme with mei2...had a nice chat...so long nver chat with her cos she was bz with her projects...so we had a very nice chat before sayin goodbye...hehe...

Reached home,showered,watched Oprah,had dinner n tats abt it...very bumped out nw tat its mon n this stupid thing can't upload my photos for sme stupid reason...i wan to put more photos for yest's entry bt cant....aaaaarrrggghh!!...

Met Studio peeps!!...

2006-08-13T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,I went out with the Studio ppl..Bt before that,I went to my best friend's house,which was fun cos it was bonding time for us..I always love bonding time with her...Her mother missed me so much that she kissed me on my cheeks...bt i was sweating!!..oh my god...so paiseh...bt she said she dun care...haha....she said she treated me like a daughter...was so very touched...when i was about to go home..she kept askin..y nver stay longer?..wanted to but can't...she then said to come anytime i wanted..said that the door was always open for me...sooo swwweeeet of her..

Well,after that,I rushed home n showered quickly then went n meet the Studio ppl...Wen i rched..i was late..no,i was very,very late...like one and a half hour late...haha...evryone was like..."YANI!!!!"..sorry...i didn't mean to bt wen i'm wih my best fren...i completely lost track of time...anyway,then i found out that the steamboat that we wanted to go,Chong Pang was fully booked!!!!!...aaaarrrgggghhhh!!!!!!....was soooooo sad...I was looing forward to eat at Chong Pang but can't.....aaarrrrrggggghhhh!!!!.....was so depressed...aft tat we decided to go town n meet Xavier(Tian Liang) n Serene then went to eat at Wisma's foodcourt....wa lau!!!...worst experience of my life man...now i noe y tian liang dun like to eat at foodcourt..e food like...YUCKS!...there was only one malay stall so i decided to eat there la...ate the nasi padang..had fish which was so darn small..pathetic..veggie,egg n chicken wing with rice n it was all $6.20!!!!!...i was like wat the heck!!...5 bucks mayb i would understand but $6.20??...wa lau...the egg was like yesterday's egg..so hard to chew...the chicken was so darn tough...went back to the table all moody...didn't even feel like eating sia...bt Xavier kept telling me to eat...haha...he said I became like him oredy..he usually complains wen he eats at foodcourts...haha...bt actually,I'm nt much of a complainer bt yesterday,the food really sucks le...i slowly ate bit by bit....i was the last to finish...then i felt like puking...YUCKS!!..

Then me,Tian Liang,Mich,Ganjun n Serene separated frm Joe n John...we went to coffee bean n the other two went to get sme stationeries...at coffee bean,i had my fave Pure Vanilla...HEAVEN!!...i felt a lil better...Pure Vanilla always makes me feel better...bt the guy actually mixed up my order...he gave me pure chocolate...i tot he wld change bt he gave the pure chocolate for free!!!...haha...bt i still preferred Pure Vanilla...Mich n Tian Liang had the Mocha..since Ganjun works at Coffee Bean,he gt the new Honeydew drink for free!!!...wa...so good...gt so many free drinks!!...all of us went on a tasting spree...Mocha was yucks...bitter...i hate coffee bt still i tried..gong!!...bad aftertaste...the honeydew was so darn sweeeeet....can get diabetes man...the pure chocolate was not bad but Pure Vanilla still the best...aft that we made our way to Changi Airport to meet Syafiqah n Amanda...took the bus...bad move...was stuck in a jam n Amanda was oredy there....she was pissed cos she had been waiting for us for quite smetime...Syafiqah was reachin so i quickly called Syafiqah to look for Amanda once she reached...I was actually scared that Amanda would go ballistic with us bt wen we met her,she was okay la...Thank god!!...

We hung out at the airport at sme corner to do our "project" but I felt that it was of no use cos we dun hve photos n we didn't hve enough materials...bt Joe was so adamant so we tried our best to do it anyway....i had no inspiration on wat to write for both tchrs so Joe started first...bt the time of us "hanging out" was fun...we chatted,slept then chatted again...we had like a "camp out" there..we laughed n talked...great bonding time....i think i managed to fall asleep at like 6 n woke up at like 8...John n Serene had left earlier so the remaining of us had breakfast at MB..erm...i mean Marrybrown...then all of us went home but we were separated at Tanah Merah..me n Tian Liang board the train going towards Boon Lay while Syafiqah n Joe went the one towards Pasir Ris...Had a nice chat with Xavier that we didn't even realise how fast the time went...before we noe it,he had to go...thx Xavier for being my listening ear...haha...TIAN LIANG!..

Overall,it was a fun day....thx Joe for organizing it...was quite bumped out wen couldn't go eat steamboat..sob...sob...bt nxt tym have!!!...more bumped out wen Mei2 didn't come n Mich nver follow to airport!!!....bt still...okay la...want to upload photos but nxt time ah...camera low batt...haha..Cheerios!!...

Recent update:Photos uploaded..check it out!!...

Dull,Boring Day...Dun even bother to read...

2006-08-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

Today went to school..was like half an hour late only to realise the class was cancelled...haiyah..SIAN!!..it was like 10:45..the next class was at 2...so sat in SL..watched DOOM which was okay la..It was bloody violent n I kept screaming almost half the movie..haha..then my fren switched on sme chinese cartoon which was B-O-R-I-N-G!!..mainly cos I dun understand...it was so boring that i fell asleep...Tini woke me up wen it was tym for class..

The lecture was damn boring n dull..kept praying that tym would move faster so that I could be free from the dullness of the class..Then at 3,went home,slept some more..woke up at like 7,showered,ate n face the comp...

Tmr meeting Joe,Michelle n Xavier(TIAN LIANG!!) to go to Joe's secondary school..I only wan to kaypoh2 since tmr all class cancelled so I hve a full free day...will be bored at home so I'm meeting them tomorrow...aft tat mite meet Titi n Bibi to catch sme fireworks...maybe..see how la..if i'm not tired...

NDP Performance

2006-08-08T20:47:00.000+08:00

Today was the performance day for NDP...was okay ah but "this grp of ppl"...wa lau!!!...got on my nerves sia...the "biatch" was main reason...better not tok abt it ah...heart pain ah...those who noe should noe la ha...

Anyway,my performance was fine...my mum n bro came!!...anyway,i tot i was flat but Mei2,Mich n Joe said it was fine..Mr. Baron also said it was good...very relieved wen my performance finished..then aft tat,my tchr asked me n Mich to sing another song bcos one of the item tat was suppose to perform was running late...bt we didn't know wat song to sing...in the end we settled on "Can't Fight The Moonlight" cos that's the only song we both noe n attempted before....I noe wat u're all thinkin...NDP performance n singin "Can't Fight The Moonlight"?..we tot the same too bt it was a last minute thing so me n Mich jus tried our best lor...we jus sang...aiyah...Overall,it was okay la except for "this grp of ppl"..bt I always beared in mind to hve fun during performance n tat was wat i had...

Aft tat..hung out in SL wif my frens then met up with Yifeng...we went out to IMM for lunch n surveyed smethin for *ahem ahem*..i've got an idea oredy gang!!..hpefully u guys will like it too...more imptantly hpefully the person receiving will like it too..haha..

Before i go..here's sme photos of our performance..hehe...

FINALE with the rest of the performers...actually gt more ah bt the rest nowhere to b seen

Us with the drummer n bellydancer..haha...

Me tryin to feel the song..haha...bt i look horrible...

Me n Mich doin our "thang"

US..

Monday Blues

2006-08-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to write about today..went to sch as per normal then after lunch,"helped" bibi,mich,orange n atiqah with sme project Mr. Tong assigned to them..which was kinda fun...Made a few jokes with him...he actually laughed at my jokes...haha..then aft tat got rehearsal which sucks ah!!...wa lau...sound system like shit...then the "biatch" talks like she noe everything...oredy say cannot play means cannot play la...WA LAU!!...spoil my mood sia...i oredy bad mood about yest then want to add to it...then had to go for meeting at 5...tat was okay...get to hang out with my fave guy,Cai Yifeng!!..then practice with mei mei n joe in SL...bt wasn't really productive la...i was tired n had no mood..mei2 had no mood...all nt focus...then watever la...all went home shortly after...

Reached home,ate,update this entry n now hve to go off cos my sis wanna sleep...so,Cheerios...

Sad,sad day..Sob..

2006-08-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

Lemme start of wif sat...5th aug..overslept...woke up at like 1:30,showered then ate..then gt nagged by my mom...as per normal she says i nver do hsework la...blah blah blah..n as per normal,i jus listened..then went to the monthly family meeting...would hve been bored to death if not for Kak Long..then reached home likeat 10 plus..then kena scolding frm mom..AGAIN...dunno y la she the whole day bad mood...i jus listened to her scoldin n kept quiet...didn't even bother to talk back..watever la...then I got into a bad mood...aiya...mum's been on my case these past few days..evrythin i do is wrong...i didn't tok to her frm Sat till now..

Then yesterday got like the worst news ever..yesterday,on 6th august 2006,Tchr Keith announced that it was the last day of vocal class for people who didn't get to work on the album production...wa lau!..was so excited to come to class wen Tchr suddenly said "today is a very sad day"...Michelle was all like,"can smeone please get Haryani Jumari tissue please?"..n the amazing thing was tat there were actually people who offered their tissue..then Tchr Keith was like,"u all dun say like tat la..of cos she'll cry"..Tchr Keith then made us sing for one last time but i've lost my mood to sing but sang anyway,horribly..bt managed to keep my cool(which was so darn tough) until like the end of the lesson...then waited outside for the rest..that's wen my tears started falling...non stop sia...kept tellin myself to stop...didnt want ppl to noe..did stop though..bt my frens knew me better..wen they came out,they saw me blowing my nose...wa lau...wat bad timing...i lied ah sayin i got "running nose"...then they gave me Tchr Keith's line back wen I told him I got running nose a long while back..."ur nose run where?"..tat made me laugh..all of them knew I cried...They must think I'm a crybaby...

Aft tat,we went to Takashimaya n ate at Yoshinoya...the salmon was darn nice man...snapped sme shots n reminisced sme old times..then went home..too sad to sleep so tats y i'm here..oh gosh,i'm cryin man..writing this entry...I'm gonna miss evryone of em...

Syafiqah dearest,ur beautiful presence n support for me is smething tat i will never ever forget..thx for believin in me..ure the one person tat i will miss the most..
Beloved Xavier,TIAN LIANG!!..i will nver ever forget you...sme of my widest smile n biggest laughter i've had were with you..ure very sincere n i'm very glad i met u..
Darling Joe,u're my fren,my enemy n "mentor" in evry possible way...ure one nice guy tat i will cherish 4 e rest of my life...
Marvelous Mei Mei,u are the one person tat hve always been there for me..no matter how crazy ppl think i am,ure still there standing by me..thank you..
Michelle sayang,u r truly one of the most nicest person i've ever met..a treasured friend..tat'll always b who u are to me...
Sweet Amanda,ure truly very dear to me...i loved all the times we spent together...
John dearest,ure one funny guy n u hve left a great impact in my life...i'll forever remember our frenship..
Dearest Ganjun,ure an amazing guy who's extremely nice...u hve a wonderful soul n i thank u for being my fren..
Darling Joyce,ure such wonderful person to talk to..i'll nver forget u..

To Beloved Teacher Keith,I'll never forget you..You are a wonderful teacher and I want to thank you for everything especially for believing in me...

Okay..my tears are literally drenching the keyboard...i hve to stop...to anyone tat i did not manage to mention..im truly sorry,u too hve been great!!..OH GOD!!..I'm such a crybaby!!..
Anyway,one good thing is tat i'm meeting the gang again nxt Saturday so that gives me smethin to smile a lil..N Tchr Keith promised that this won't be the last time we'll see each other..he plans to have a gathering n wans to invite us to the new studio soon after everything's done..I'll hold him to it..

Now my Sundays are free..Its a whole new routine that I have to get use to...I dunno wat to fill it up with...Amanda kept tellin me to go church with her..Crazy girl but tats y i love her...aiyah...dun wan to type anymore la...more batch of tears are forming...better stop!..

Let u all c sme pics tat were taken on e last day of vocal class...sob..sob..

DAMN TIRED!!!...

2006-08-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

Today,as said before,I had to go to Kallang for Dragonboat for some ADN bonding session...Actually it wasn't that bad as I thought it would...and thank god that the boat was fine n nobody on my boat drowned...we had to fit 20 ppl nt 12!!..

Rched Kallang at like 9:00..we were then asked to split into groups of 6 with 20 ppl in each grp..my class was split into two which was expected...n we had to join with other classes..end up my group were all girls..with 2 instructors,Edward and Swee(hpe the spelling is right)..I kept calling Edward "cher"..bad habit of mine..i call evryone "cher"..Edward told me i think like 5 times to not call him Teacher but being me,I argued sayin "ppl who teach other ppl are called teachers"..with which he countered,"to be a teacher,you have to be board certified",I said,"No..in the dictionary,it clearly states that an individual who teaches another person or help him gain new knowledge is a teacher..u're teaching us dragonboat which is at the same time a new knowledge to us,therefore making you a teacher"..that did it...he didn't know wat to say..muahahahhaha....tried to stop but still called him "cher" till the end..haha..can't help it la..anyway,aft rowing for wat seems like forever..we were told that there would be a Dragonboat race for us...we competed n MY TEAM WON!!!!...muahahahahahaha...my group were all girls!!..haha...this is wat I call "GIRL POWER"!!...but at the end,I was soaking wet n DAMN TIRED from all the rowing..wen all was done..i was ATTACKED by the ppl tat I call FRENS!!...they had their water bottles filled up n decided that I needed a "shower"..was damn drenched n COLD...bt watever,we were there for the fun of it...

Then gt back to sch n helped prepare for National Day this cmein Tue..Finished at about 6 plus..Then went back home...Was very exhausted...bt was okay la..

Dragonboat wasn't so bad after all..bt if I was given a choice to do it again,my ans will be a BIG FAT NO!!...very very exhausting...

TIRED!!

2006-08-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

Quite tired now...jus nw tps paper was quite easy...mayb cos i anyhow write e ans...hahaha..bt was okay...could ans most of the qns...alhamdulilah...

Then aft the paper,had rehearsal wif beloved Mei2 n Michelle...hehe...okay la...bt rehearsal was at the atrium then ppl all kept walkin by n looking...so paiseh...bt wif mei2 n mich there...better ah...didnt hve a full run though...Joe wasn't in sch...so had to rehearse "Where I Belong",mei2's song n mine...okay la...bt we also had to sing bday song to s'pore...the 3 of us tot it wld b nice if there's a lil music in the background bt Mrs Cynthia said it wld b better wifout...bt Mrs Lui agreed wif music on so Michelle asked help frm darling Xavier(TIAN LIANG!!..) to play the piano n I asked Tchr Keith if he can help us record...bt sadly,he said nt bcos he dun wan to help us bt due to company policy, he cannot,bt said he'll try to help look around n find suitable music for us..nice of him to offer us help..bt if really cannot,e 3 of jus sing wifout music...no choice...

Reached home at 6pm...damn tired man!!...dozed off while watching OPRAH!!!!...o my god!...biggest mistake of my life!!!...woke up wen its finishin...aiyah!...showered n sat in frnt of comp up till now...Tmr gt some ADN bonding session...play sme Dagonboat thingy..I DUN WANT TO GO!!!!....one boat hve to fit 12 ppl!!...n I'm one of the 12???!!!...u must b joking!!..wat if the boat sinks??!!!...i dun wan to b accountable for the other 11 lives!!...how am i suppose to live with all the guilt???!!!...sigh...

Moving on,today at SC rm...i was soooooooo happy...i went crrrrraaaaaazzzzyyyyyy!!!!....NUTS I TELL U!!...u noe,i noe la ha...muahahahahahahaha.....nw mood quite good aso...hahahha....u noe,i noe la ha...hehe...

2006-08-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

Today is a lil bit of a better day...now nt moody...bt who noes mayb later?...muahahahahhaha...i admit,i hve mood swings nowadays...dunno y...i think hvein PMS...haiyah..bt the odd thing is,i only get it wen i'm at home bt nt wen i'm with my frens....aiyah dunno la!!...

Morning went by as per normal...intended to meet Titi bcos I gt 3 hrs break bt sadly she can't meet me cos gt project...Really miss her man ever since she left for poly...sob..sob..so jus stayed in school..ate lunch,aft tat saw tat it was only like 11:30..still had like 2 n half hours break..bored to death...smsed Shar..asked wat tym SC rm openin..she said openin at 12 so waited for like half an hour...wen 12:00 came,hung out there with Shar..toked abt "stuff"...muahahahaha...dun worry,ure nt alone,Shar...i'm in ur plight as well..haiyah!!...watever la!..heart pain la thinkin abt it..bt at the same time,can't stop...haha...i think i'm BEYOND HELP!!!...

Aiyah!!...

2006-08-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

Aiyah!!..dunno wat happened to me today..woke up,bathed n went to sch...as always,i dragged myself to Lempeng Drive...had PIE...kena target by Mr Samson..Sian!!..bt was okay la ltr...then OA..very boring!!..then lunch..during lunch,ate with the gang then went to the SC rm to hang out wif fellow councillors,which was fun!!..Mei2,me n joe laughed so much that Mei2 had a stomachache..aso had fun with Shar n um...jehan..bt all good things had to cme to an end...had to go to KYB..went there late.."lost track of time la"(like real!!)..then over there,gt like the worst news!!!...Mrs Lui,the tchr in charge of the National Day Concert wanted to cancel mine n Mei2's item!!!...wa lau!..i would b lyin if I said i wasn't disappointed..bt i tried to understand la..she said mine n mei2's were nt national day related..haiyah...she then asked me to sing a bday song to S'pore instead...suddenly i told her I dun need to perform ah...no mood sia...i mean i felt disappointed n moody cos I put in a lot of effort for the song..been practising at hme n even asked Tchr Keith to help me out with it...aiyah...felt my efforts go to waste..then like my savior,Michelle came to my rescue n told Mrs Lui nt to cancel our item..said tat we hve been workin very hard on it..thx Mich!..then Mrs Lui felt guilty n inserted our item which then made me feel guilty..haiyah...so mine n Mei2's item still on..bt gt this guilt la...kept apologising to Mrs Lui..anyway,moving on,TPS gt cancelled...bt didn't go home straight...had to accompany my frens to see our tchr..

Aft which,went home..rched home,showered n sat in front of comp for a while..talked to Mich then went offline to watch Oprah(fave talk show of all time!!) then dozed off for like 20 mins..wld hve slept longer if nt for my sis who woke me up..then from jus now until now moody...my whole family asked bt I didn't feel like toking...my dad even tried to lighten up my mood..thx 4 ur efforts,daddy bt jus dun feel lyk tokin...dunno y le..then mum asked if i hve a problem..i said no..of cos i did la..this "problem" hve been bothering me like for the past few weeks bt i'm nt gonna tell her...its jus infatuation!...i noe this!!!...bt admittin it is easier said than done...

That brings me to ask myself y am i suddenly moody?..if u r thinkin abt the national day performance thingy..i can assure u it's definitely not!..then it struck me..i noe y!!...its like wen i'm alone,i tend to brood which usually leads to LFJUI..aiyah..can't eat,can't sleep...i need a solution to this "problem"...FAST!!..HELP ME!!..SMEONE HELP MEEEEEE!!!!....

29th July!!!...Best day of my LIFE!!!...

2006-07-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

Oh my god!!...Saturday,29th July...Truly the best day of my life..It was my CEMTA concert!!!...Oh my god!!..the feeling was indescribable!!!..The adrenaline rush,the experience...WOW!!!...I had the lead for the group song!!...Well,not me alone..Had Michelle,Ganjun n Mei Mei...The group song was an original song!!..nver sung by anyone before!!..was composed by Tchr Kenn n the lyrics penned down by Teacher Keith and my dearest friend n buddy who by the way has an amazing voice,Syafiqah Syukri...muahahahahaha....Had a lot of fun performing...Remembered what Tchr Keith said.."Just have fun and enjoy"..We did just tat,cher...

We were asked to report at Simei at 11:00 despite the fact we were told by our tchr to come at 12...So,as we were told,we reached Simei like at 10:45..no,wait..I reached Simei at 10:45..e rest?..aiyah...i'll let my expression do the talking..then at abt erm...i dunno,12:00?..12:30?..we were asked to go to the theatre for the sound check..then was released for lunch..didn't eat..wasn't hugry so jus drank crysanthemum tea bt had a few bites of syafiqah's bread...while having our break,dearest Tchr Keith made his "grand entrance"..he came an hour late..mayb more..i dunno..like always,he came looking tired n sleepy..was abt to sit wen he saw coffee..went n gt his coffee though i think he bought tea instead..hmm...aiyah dunno la..so there we sat toking..then i told him a joke...that made him a laugh lil bit...muahahaha...
then at about 2:30 went to the theatre again for the full dress rehearsal..it was okay la...Tchr Keith told me to smile more..my face was oredy hurting from all the smiling,still ask me to smile more...haiya...bt bcos of him,i'll do it so i beared that in mind..

Then came time for the concert to start...first was band with a bunch of songs...was alright..then came karaoke group...they did fine...then there was a break...aft tat came another band..Then...
the tym for us to perform came...We all had to go backstage to prepare...Palms were sweaty,pulse racing...I could literally feel Xavier's heartbeat wen he placed my hand on his chest..

First was Joe n Serene..they did a duet...nice!!..then the star n my dearest buddy,Syafiqah Syukri singing "He's Gone" which was actually a chinese song by A Mei called "Jie Tuo"..Oh my god!!..her voice is angelic!!..u hve to hear it to belive it!!...then came my beloved friend,Xavier performing his solo..TIAN LIANG!!...then came Juwita whom as always,sounds fab...Then the group song!!!..wa lau!...i was scared half to death...nearly peed in my pants..i cleared my throat a lil bit...the song came on n me,Ganjun,Michelle n Mei Mei came out first...was panicking wen didn't see Tchr Keith!!...we knew that Teacher Kenn had an urgent matter to attend so he couldn't see us perform..I was quite bumped out...very sad Tchr Kenn couldn't witness us perform..bt I panicked even more wen I didn't see Tchr Keith..Bt managed to keep my cool..First Mei Mei sang her part,then Mich,then it was mine...kept prayin in my heart..tellin myself nt to screw up..then thank god my voice was working properly..mangaged my part quite easily then it was Ganjun's turn who by the way did remarkable as well...remembered Tchr Keith's instructions:
"Look around..dun jus focus on one part of the audience...look all over..engage the audience.."
"SMILE!!.."
"Be lively"
Tried my best to remember them n jus did my thing...then suddenly,saw Tchr Keith at the back,raising up his hands(which he usually does wen we singing the group song bt i dunno wat it means)..wat a relief!!...so wen i was too nervous to look at the audience,I jus looked at Tchr Keith..Bt I still tried to pluck up courage n look around..saw my family n frens...cheering for us..hehehehe....thx guys for cmein..it means the world to me!!...heard that Shar lost her sandals while cheering for us...hehe...i'll get u new ones okay?...hehe...

I have to say that the end part of the song was the best...all of us stood together n hugged each other..wah!!!...i felt the love,man!!...aft it was all over...the crowd went wild!!!...i think..i mite b exaggerating...muahahaha..we were walking off the stage wen i suddenly heard smeone yelling,"Yani,I love you"..didn't know who it was,tot she sounded like Jehan bt said it back anyway..heheh..then we were asked to sit among the audience...Tchr Keith joined us and sat with us..Mr Baron came up to give a speech...called Tchr Keith up on stage as well n we went WILD!!...all screaming,"I LOVE YOU,TCHR KEITH!!!..."
I swear he was blushing!!..muahahaha...bt overall we all had such a nice feeling n importantly,really enjoyed ourselves...

Then walked with Tchr Keith on the way to the dance studio n he said HE WAS PROUD OF US!!!...ALL OF US DID GREAT!!!...HE LIKED THE MOOD THAT WE BROUGHT ON STAGE!!..WA PIANG!!...the feeling was even more better!!...then i told him that I actually flubbed a line during the chorus but he said he couldn't hear..he said all of us did good..then we went wild again applauding ourselves which he then told us to stop it..he said,"you know you did good but be humble...on stage, u can act but off stage,BE HUMBLE"..as always,he's the wise one among us..anyway,all our hard work didn't go down the drain...went to the studio...gt allowance which was wooo hooo!!...then snapped sme grp photos...bt sadly,our beloved Tchr had to go off first..had a class to teach...bt reminded us to come to class the next day at 4pm n it was the first tym tat i was so excited to go to class..muahahaha...(the class was cancelled though which was soooooo saaaaadd)

All of us decided to go makan,with the allowance money..hhahaha...went to LJS at Tampines Mall..all of us were famished....i ate the hot n spicy chicken...couldn't finish it so gave it to Amanda..walked around a lil bit then all of us got a msg frm Tchr Keith,saying that we hve done well n that he was very proud of us n we hve made Tinybox into a very proud n big box..hahaha..we all felt appreciated..thx for ur words,cher..shortly aft,decided to go home..all in all,it was a fabulous day!!!...

Credits go to our amazing Tchr Keith whom have guided us n taught us with great patience and tolerance...We couldn't have done it without you!!..Nt forgetting Tchr Kenn who gave us support n a whole lot of tolerance..hehehe...sori if we always make you angry,cher...didn't mean to..
To my CEMTA Studio Recording mates..WE DID WELL!!!...Oh my god the ppl I met here are the most amazing ppl...there's the guys,Xavier,Joe,John,Trevelyan n Ganjun..u guys hve made me laugh n smile sooo many2 times...then there are the gals...too many of em to mention who hve been nothing bt amazing to me...bt special mention goes to beloved Syafiqah Syukri who hve always supported n complimenting my voice bt I assure you hers is a thousand times better!!..nt forgettin Mei Mei n Mich...you guys r great!!...LOVE U!!...Its only been like 3 days I hvent seen all of them n I miss them like crazy!!..Cant wait to see you all this sun!!..Prayin hard tat Tchr doesn't cancel the lesson...I can die if he cancels them I tell you!!...Muahahahaaha..Cheerios!!...

Teehehehe...

These are the ppl tat are near n dear to me...Sigh..

CEMTA Studio Recording

OH MY GOD!!!..I HAVE A BLOG!!...

2006-07-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

Oh my god!!!...Can't believe that I have a blog...Ppl who noe me noes tat I'm not into all this blog thingy...I find it as a waste of tym bt I realised tat smetimes you jus need to vent out your frustrations or wat you're feeling but dunno who to tell,blogging is a nice way to do it..Maybe those reading it may say that a diary would do the same thing but at least with a blog,ppl can gve me comments n stuff...haha...who am i kiddin?...i want to share my thoughts with my beloved frens la...I noe i said i would give my friendster blog another try but I gave up!!..But then my darling fren,Nur Shabana ask me to give blogspot a try..said tat it was easy..so far okay la...Bt i aso hve this blog because sme of my frens hve been pestering me to have one...they r dying to noe abt my life...muahahahaha...this one's for you guys!!...